supressed desire and it's expression

Sorry not sure where this goes. As a teen I knew I had a strong artistic talent as in music. I've always been right on top of what's new and good. The problem is I was so introverted and afraid to do anything in public let alone on stage. One day as I was walking on an icy surface in front of a lot of people I lost my footing somewhat and my legs were going crazy trying to regain my footing. I was doing a fantastic dance as good as any MJ could do. Some people sitting in a car saw this and laughed hysterically. I think it was my thwarted desire trying to get out. Another time while playing with a match stick in my fingers. I almost dropped it but somehow started doing this fantastic miniature juggling bit with the matchstick. It was incredible. I was amazed at what I was doing but not under my own control.

It's life I think. Same can happen with dancing, the body can actually dance on its own without "you" interfering. Also breathing could be a good example

eric555,

I think we all go through this at some point in our life. When I was a teen, all of my outgoing-ness was shot down because I would see other people who were better than me at what I wanted to do and I shut down. For so long I never thought I would be good in relationships, good with people skills, and good at much of anything. I decided to retreat to my comfort zone, where I would never lose, never get embarrassed, never get stung by people. The truth is though, I would always lose, always get embarrassed, and always get stung by people because I never believed in myself. It was only recently that I made the decision to completely change myself, and get rid of ALL the things that held me back, which has included hobbies, work, and even friends. As one of my hero's, Zan Perrion said,
"Every great life has had in it a great renunciation."
The problem with that is we not only let ourselves down by not going after what we want, we let down the world. Your heart already knows what it wants to do, the problem is our fierceness has been slowly destroyed by society, which your mind will have to overcome. It will be a slow process, but I seriously recommend watching this video I have posted below. It is about relationships, but it relates to all aspects of life. It has the most powerful message I've ever heard. Please let me know what you think!
-Distant Angel

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E626Mown ... re=mh_lolz