Singing phobia/anxiety

Since childhood I have been a good singer....won several awards....I had always known that singing is my trump card....but was in various other things till now...due to some accidents in life ...I lost somethings I had achieved and then thought of my trump card.....I don't know what has gone wrong....since childhood I never had problems with singing in tune but now suddenly when I think ...that if at all I'm able to sing one song in tune ....I would do what I want to .....for years I have not sung....now its been more that 3 years that I have been practicing but ....I suddenly can't sing now....everything is fine but the moment I sing I start thinking ....just one song properly and you are done and every time I go slightly off key.....I have realized if coincidently I happen to record something where I was not thinking anything....It is proper...and the moment I start thinking of success ..which is permanently there now.....it interferes with my thought process of just focusing on my performance.....I want to know if there is any practice where I cant start feeling ....the way I had felt all these many years that....THERE IS NOTHING EASIER THAN SINGING.....I just want to regain that belief.......

I have a few ideas. But they are just from my imagination, not personal or professional experience. And I hope none offend you.

If you have a faith, then perhaps the view that only God is perfect might help. I've read it in association with the Amish, that they always make a deliberate mistake in every quilt. And also of Muslim carpet weavers. That only Allah can create without error. Therefore as a child of God, imperfection is a natural state. Those wobbles off-key are a form of prayer. They're meant to be there.

Or. It seems like you're putting impossible pressure on yourself by saying that one perfect song will equal a "cure". Because you know in truth, the next song is still waiting to be sung and may go off-key. But the thing is, that's OK. Each song is a chance to do things fresh. If you have a "magical belief" that all songs after the "perfect" one will also be perfect, of course you will self-sabotage because that's an impossible state. Also, singing is ONE talent. It's not your only trump card. Again, that's putting on the pressure. Perhaps you'll be a great teacher. Or write an amazing book. Or do something wonderful unrelated to singing. By limiting yourself to this single form of achievement, you restrict other opportunities.

Or. You are an artist, painting scenes and feelings with your words. Expressing yourself is what's important, not how technically perfect the performance is. Sometimes, the off-key part is what reaches people, because most listeners don't have perfect pitch and don't understand the "problem". All they know is that the voice has reached out of the tune to them. Perfection isn't always perfect.

Dear mudh,

I agree with ada. You have to realize that there is no such thing as perfection, so to chase it is futile. You also have to realize that you are your harshest critic. If you are a wonderful singer but let yourself get inside your head, you don't just fail yourself, you fail the world. Why would you hold back your greatness? There is always room for another talented voice in this world.
Trust me, I used to not believe in myself as well. I used to think that I would never be good at anything and that I was just existing for the sake of existing but nothing is further from the truth! We all have a purpose on this planet, to catch our passions and to connect with people. Don't ever short change yourself! You are so valuable and can make a difference in this world! You have to get back to singing immediately!

All I know is if I want to sing out of tune I will ######6 sing out of tune.

If you know how to sing before you'll soon get there. Practice makes perfect and do not be afraid to make mistakes. Just give yourself a break and just enjoy the moment when you sing

I love the meaning behind Katana's words. You should never let others from letting you have a good time! Ever.