I found the place.

Hello everyone! My name is David and I am 22 years old. I just want to share a story I have and MODs please move this forum if I post this in the wrong section. Anyways, a few years back I was told back a doctor I had chemical brain imbalance. Depression, anxiety, panic attacks. It all started when I was 16. That's when I first took my hit of weed (mistake) and I liked it. So I started smoking some more (people who have never done it, DO NOT do it) and started smoking it on a regular basis. After about a year of smoking I started to having weird feelings. My chest would start tightening up, my heart would star racing and I would believe "my friends" were talking about me focusing on what they were talking about, you know, those negative things about you when in reality they wasn't. It was maybe 2 weeks before Christmas in 2004 I had smoked some weed all day long. This is when things got really freaky. I again started to believe my "friends" were talking about me and that they could read my mind or my thoughts or that they even knew what I was going to think in the future. Anyhow I ended up going home that night saying nothing at all to them. I was headed to bed so I could get some rest for work in the morning.... but I couldn't do it. I kept have racing thoughts of what went on down at the "friends" house and started to believe they were still reading my mind. I felt as if they were communicating with me over the computer, the television and also the radio. I couldn't sleep for two days straight. I stayed up all night for two days. I felt as if the T.V itself was talking to me and I had to do what it said or bad things would happen. Scary thoughts ran through my mind. I thought I was in a battle between God and the Devil. I would say things in my head like if I had do some certain thing and I felt as I had a response with a head nod, a thump on the floor or even a word. Anyways, I ended up going to my local hospital, St. Mary's which is maybe 30 seconds away from me. My mother went with me and I told them what was going on. They gave me a shot in the butt (OUCH!) with some med to try to get me to go to sleep and it didn't work. I stayed in the hospital for a few hours and kept have spiritual thoughts running through my mind. After those hours they had sent me to a mental institute here in Knoxville called Lakeshore. I was there for about 2 weeks and I finally recovered. They had put me on Zoloft which started working excellent for me. I took it for about a year and I stopped. I kept telling myself I didn't want myself to rely on a med to make me feel normal. So after 8 months of not taking it, started feeling the same again just not as bad. So I got back on my meds which is different from Zoloft. Not sure what the name of it is, I just take it lol. Anyhow I feel as if it is not working right for me now and I'm starting to think these make believe in my head things. So today I searched up chemical brain imbalance and found the website that directed me to this forum. As I was reading up on chemical brain imbalance, all the problems I was having was written on the page of the things that occur which for some reason it put a big smile on my face from ear to ear because those were the things that were happening to me. Anyhow... I wanted to share this scary story to everyone else and let them know, if they started believe people can read your mind or what not, they CAN NOT!!!!!!! Also, don't think that you are not normal because you have this disorder because you are normal! We are ALL humans beings and none of us are the same nor are we all perfect! Well, happy new years everyone!!!!

We are all NOT normal. Because normal is not real.

Brain biochemistry imbalance is probably used because that is the only thing that can explain ANY disorder that can not be caused by any other problems in the body. (Brain biochemistry has very VERY limited research, and time and money will eventually give it its own departments in universities).

Weed is well understood to cause paranoia, glad to see you've stopped that garbage. There's many more drugs that are better .

But I agree, no one can read minds... except for me of course (I think I can atleast ).

Welcome to the forums. I'm new aswell.