I smoke too much.
I worry about things that I have no control over.
I interfere with my daughters lives and how they raise the grandchildren.
I can't go to sleep at times, because I have these crazy dreams about someone hurting my girls and grandchildren, or I'm worrying about a fire, car accident, things like that.
Sometimes I feel like there's electricity running through my body and I can't get it to stop.
There are a lot of times that I cry at the drop of a hat (bad marriage, so I think that has a lot to do with it).
I'm uncomfortable around people because I don't know what to talk about; in turn, I feel that my personality comes off as conceited, not the caring, loving person that I am.
I'm so totally paranoid at times.
I have no self-confidence. I feel guilty about things I shouldn't.
I'm always on the defensive and I trust hardly anyone.
My mind drifts off and I don't realize what's going on around me.
I've only seen this therapist once, last week. I can't wait to see her again this Friday because we connected almost immediately. She seems to think that a lot of my problems started 36 years ago, when my mother died (I was only 17 and her death left a HUGE hole in my life). I've been married for 32 yrs to a man with NPD.
So, what do you think? Could I have passed this on to my girls, because they both have suffered from anxiety and panic attacks. Any info or opinions would be very helpful. Thx.