Lost....

I dont even know why i am posting, as my nickname says it all....

Been away from social life since... I cant remember, or i better not.. It all start when i was at school, i developed stuttering problem, that lead to anxiety and my family been a disaster with no sign of any support... Event my gm literally bulled me, to the point of joking about my problem....

I closed into myself and today i find myself without friends, nada, nothing!

Soon ill be reaching 26 and i see this will continue to be like this until... Who knows??

I know i should have had to do something about it long ago, but it only got worse and worse... And now i have no idea of what to do, maybe i should end it right away....

This is like living in hell

hello hope.

i'm sorry you're going through this. it sounds awful. i'm also very sorry to hear your gm (hmm i am not really sure what does gm stand for) joking about your problem. s/he shouldn't have done that.

but don't lose hope, life is always changing. sometimes bad, sometimes good. you do not know what your life be like in the future. i have one friend that sounds like you. she had no friends in junior and senior high school. (for 18 years i guess) everyone is hostile to her. but now, she is surrounded by many good friends.

i'm sorry i can't be of much help. but please keep talking if that helps. writing is a good way to help release your emotion even just a little.

hope this finds you feel a bit better, hope.

Hi there

I'm sorry you're trying to deal with all this too and you are feeling so alone. Having been bullied is horrible and it's extremely hard to try to push away all the negative thoughts it leaves behind.

You say you should have done something a long time ago- I think sometimes you have to feel ready to tackle it. Have you thought about seeing a therapist at all? I think talking over what has happened to you would be a good step towards trying to find a way of coping with things. It's never too late to reach out and ask for help- it's not easy, but it can make a big difference. You can get through this.

Take care
Lily

im sure your a great person. Just... Like your thinkin too much. Way too much thinking about everything. You gotta have friends tho. You cant say you have no friends, theres gotta be someone to hold u up. Ive been blessed with friends and i guess i take that for granted but god damn they got me through some CRAZY panic attack episodes(and i mean CRAZY). Find a friend if you dont have one, Just try, i mean, you seem like you need one. Being alone is scary, i know it first hand. But theres a beauty in it. Idk, just take it easy your thinking too much.