So nervous..

Hello, I've been lurking the forums here for a while and I finally got the guts to sign up and post.
Here's a bit about me, I've been diagnosed with GAD, PTSD, Depression. I had my older sister die when I was ten years old, I've dealt with child abuse though out my life (emotional abuse, mainly. Still suffer through it with my mother. ) And I've had an abusive ex boyfriend who was emotional and physically abusive to me for a year and half.

And lately My anxiety has been so bad I don't even leave the house with out my fiance, Its like I physically can't I start having panic attacks and I just cant leave. I've missed five doctor appointments because of it too, Which is bad because these appointments are for my anti-depressants. I'm left alone all day while he goes to work and emotionally I know its bad for me to be left alone but we don't have a choice since we're about to get kicked out of my fathers house who we're staying with for the time being. I've tried to find jobs or something to keep me busy or just go out to exercise. But I just am scared to go outside with out him! I honestly don't know where this came from. I have never been like this before but lately with in the last month its been really really bad. I was just wondering if anyone had any advice to help me out? This is driving me crazy

Hi
when i go through a crisis, i go back to basis.
am i sleeping enough? time and intensity? (take melatonina...before antipsichotics)
am i eating well? not very heavy meals at night. enough but not too much proteins...have you made a blood exam for deficiencies? when i do not eat at time, i begin to shake and my mind goes blurry.

do i make time in my day, for some physical activity? even if it is inside the house.
do i make time to read something spiritual, something positive that leaves me a goed feeling afterwaards.

am i feeding to many negative thoughts throughout the day?

i have had a couple of times in the last month that i was so afraid that i was shaking from toes to head....what worked for me was to pray...because i need to be able to function to take care of my kids.

i take magnesium during the day ( i am older) and it helps me to be a bit calmer.
some people take vitamine B complex. ask somebody to go with you to the doctor,
and start with a blood exam. there are some many unbalances in our body that bring that sense of fear in us.

be careful with the anti depressants, and check the secondary effects.
good luck!