Quality of memories and childhood host changes?

So, we had at least four hosts from three-years-old until now, early 30s. From all accounts, I started hosting at nearly 17. I started as a father introject (which had both positive and negative aspcts) and seem to have been an inside and/or school/non-family world part from as early as seven. I have some school memories that seem pretty clear from those ages, but very few family memories. It seems like prior to my hosting, all of my non-school memories are of the following types.

1. In general...meaning, "In general, things were like this." In general, I visited my grandma on the weekends and she would take me places like the museum. In general, I would play certain types of games with these friends. Before diagnosis, I would tell T what things were like in my home, how I saw certain family members, etc. and he would ask for a specific example of what I was trying to get accross and I would just falter and say, "I don't know. I can't think of any specific time. Things were just like this."

2. Stories. It feels like a ton of my early memories that have any specificity to them are like reading a kid's book. One or two photos sometimes that are made up and often show me in third person with either a list of what happened or a cause and effective narrative of some sort. These seem to start feeling "closer" to me around seven, when I think I first came out and Sam (tomboy) became host. I have a few from LY's time hosting (3-6), but they feel much more like stories told to me by others or almost unreal dreams. During Sam's time onward, I feel pretty confident about the stories, even if they still don't feel like memories.

My general dissociation makes it such that it is still hard for me to "store" what happens externally, although I do tend to store a lot about what is going on inside. Almost like my tape recorder is recording so much inside information that it doesn't have very much room for what's going on outside. So, I don't know how much of this is related to DID, hosting changes, etc., rather than just the fact that I am still pretty highly dissociated and stuck in my own head a lot of the time.

I guess, I fought accepting my diagnosis and multiple-host stuff that OO tells me for so long, because I felt like I should have a sense of the gaps. Like, it should have felt like I was dropped from outer space into a world where nobody and nothing is familiar. Obviously, it probably doesn't work that way, or else DID wouldn't be so damned hard to diagnose. Anyway, I just kind of wondered for those who have a lot of early childhood amnesia, what did your brain fill in for that lack of memories. A lot of general information? Stories from other parts? Stories from outside people? How were you able to not notice your lack of memories for so long, other than not knowing what a normal person remembered. I'm still surprised that I argued with T about how good my memory of my childhood was. My idea of having a good memory of my childhood was three early "stories" and a list of the "sort of" things I did. When T said, "Well, it could be that your life was just very routine," I knew that was wrong (because objectively, I knew things were very unstable, people coming and going all the time), yet I just accepted it as why the memories weren't specific. Am I just programmed to be that obtuse?

Good topic yakusoku. I probably have some other form of dissociation than DID.I have many memories from early childhood, but significantly less from when I was 6-12.

Most of my early childhood memories are about playing. Certain toys, colouring and drawing, playing with my best friend outdoors. I also remember places, but more vaguely.
I have many memories of situations that were socially traumatizing for me, no memories of positive interaction really other than sunday school, and going fishing with dad and him reading fairytales for us in the evening. Funny that my positive memories are about him! I remember how difficult it was to get sleep at times.

I've always known that before age 10 my memory is pretty hazy, but I still felt like I remembered a lot. It's only recently that I've realised a lot of what I 'remember' is just knowing something happened. I don't actually remember it, or, if I do, I have no emotional connection to it. It's like reading a biography. This isn't just for early childhood either. There's a whole chunk of time when I was 16/17 when I know a certain situation was happening but I don't remember anything about it. I think that's how my mind has made up for the gaps. Knowing roughly what was going on has stopped me needing to actually 'remember' it.