Daily how are you?

Hey Eve. Sorry you're not liking school. I hope you figure out who this voice belongs to. It's not always a lot of fun finding new alters, but everyone's part of your inner family and everyone deserves to be found, I think Good luck

Doing better than I have for a long time, thanks Sleeping better, less depressed, less losing time. I will enjoy it while I can

I'm doing great I became an aunt yesterday. It's my first time and while it has pangs of sadness (we have a sibling and we are not in contact with this sibling at all and haven't been in years) I'm so happy for my SO (who's sibling had the baby) and it was very nice to go visit

Yes she was real little and so nice but I only looked from inside cause I didn't wanna break the baby or have anyone see me

It was kinda fun cause the SO's mom was like "you know your way around babies, don't you?" cause we were all natural about holding her and stuff Didn't think anyone would comment on it so was kinda fun

lifelongthing wrote:Hey Eve. Sorry you're not liking school. I hope you figure out who this voice belongs to. It's not always a lot of fun finding new alters, but everyone's part of your inner family and everyone deserves to be found, I think Good luck

*TRIGGER WARNING... maybe*
Um... that essay thing is not just some normal essay stuff. That essay is about introducing "myself" (or ourselves).
I told Adam to write something good. But he listened to Eve. That doesn't sound good.
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("I'm confuse" -Adam)

That sounds stressful When we were in school we were told to write a book about ourself. Safe to say the chapters didn't really seem to belong together Hope you find a way to compromise

I just need someone to understand... Racheal... I'm sorry.
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She's "in her room" now. I think we should leave her alone. And she wasn't referring to me. She was referring one of our classmates in school.

I'm sorry you don't feel anyone understands you. I hope you can find someone to talk to, like a therapist or something

Hi AdamMZ, Nice to meet you. School is so tough with DID, your voice reminds me of B, she's nice in a very hard edge/rough kinda way, do you think the voice was serious or has an unfortunate sense of humor?

@ lifelongthing, Congratulations! That sucks how it's bittersweet, your siblings don't know what they are missing!

@ Owleyes, Awesomeness! Glad to hear it!

@Bourbon, yeah, me too. I thought I was doing well, not sure why being tired at night, is a trigger. According to my ISH, it's a core issue, and said one of the littles was behind it, and my mother introject has been poping up alot. It sucks because there's like a trigger then the anger comes forward which triggers a little so then I scare myself, and been having trouble unblending from myself to see what's going on inside directly. Then the others offered to take my tiredness away, but I told them no, since I want to handle it myself.

So I'm doing good or better overall, just sometimes feel it's endless work, and the whole permanently damaged stuff surfaces.

I still haven't found out from B what my IRL mom told her about when I was an infant. I do know it's a core issue that caused Joan and B to form, Joan to deny it, and B to hold the memory, maybe more.

Trigger Warning I'm pretty sure my mom tried to kill me when I was an infant(given that she did when I was older), and according to her(Egg donor), turned blue, then before my dad got home gave me cpr and came back to life. I know she drowned me, at least once, that I remember, there was neglect, and starvation, but according to my ISH there was more than that, and I know who holds the memories. From what I heard from her it's intense, but she won't give me details. end. One of my ISH said I'm not connecting emotionally to the others, and not grasping the severity of what the egg donor had done. We talked a bit about it, and he brought a little forward to blend so I could feel the difference, (I felt nothing, and the little was severely depressed). B's been taking over a bit, making frowny faces, but at a loss on how to help them atm.

I'm sorry you have such big traumas to work on Borg, but I trust you are capable of dealing with it You have support here at least and we think of you It's hard work, but it will surely be worth it in the end. ((safe hugs)) if wanted.

I'm sorry to hear about your trauma, Borg. I hope everything works on for you.

For the original post idea: I am sicker than a dog and it's making my head fuzzy and confused. Which isn't the best cause I apparently have a new alter. Though I'm kinda in denial about that, even though my husband has talked to her.

I should get paid for all my coughing, I'd make rent for sure.