isolation

w4rp3dh4l0 wrote:I put myself in isolation a lot because I don't want to show my "freakiness" to other people. And, I'm afraid of other people. I don't like to be around other people. I have almost no friends because of it. So, for me, yeah, I'm isolated on purpose.

I can relate to this a lot, this is generally how I feel, but:

candyr2911 wrote:we are all probably supposed to also be very outgoing and lively as that is how I basically entered life. But because of trauma, etc, we became withdrawn and just learnt to even hate people

I've also been told that as a young child I was very lively and outgoing. It's always been very frustrating because I've felt like I'm really a very sociable person but I'm just trapped inside this shell. I had selective mutism as a kid, which always sounds weird to me because it implies that you're choosing to do it, when nothing could be further from the truth. I would have loved to chat to people, I just couldn't.

I am very glad to know that my SO is not the only person. But with him its strange, he will go with me to social situations (not that I do much myself) and we have a group of friends who know and accept his DID, and he is the life of the party. But he doesn't like people and prefers not to be around them. This is why his job at a dog daycare is great, he still deals with people but most of his time is with the dogs who he connects better with.