::deep breath::
Okay...
During my last T session, a new part emerged who I'd never met before. A very blunt, angry, "tough guy" sort of part. My T asked this part if they (he?she?) would be interested in doing hypnosis next session to try to uncover some of the (possibly) buried memories during a time in my life that I know was very traumatic but I have very little memory of. This part acted all cool with it, and was like, "yeah sure why not." Well... Okay not exactly but perhaps that's how I interpreted it. So next session my T is going to try to "find" that part so they can do the hypnosis together.
Here's the thing... First of all.. Shouldn't it be "me" that my therapist does hypnosis with? Is this me being "nazi host"? Also, I'm not so confident in the process. It scares the hell out of me to be honest. I've had very limited exposure to hypnosis, and the only time someone ever tried putting me in a deep trance, it didn't work whatsoever. I'm also terrified about what I might find out. I mean, if I do have memories that are hidden from me, aren't they hidden for a reason? And won't they just naturally come when I am ready for them to come?
I don't know. I'm very confused about the whole thing. I do very much trust my therapist however. And, she's extremely knowledgable and experienced in working with dissociation and dissociative clients. I know she knows what she's doing. I don't think she'd do something that she didn't think I was ready for. I really don't know what to think. I'm just thoroughly confused and conflicted about this.
Brandic