Music in my head

Does anyone else have music almost constantly playing in their head? I have kids songs playing most of the day every day... over and over. Sometimes I am amazed that "I" even know all the words to the song... but then again, somehow I don't think I'm the one that decided to play the music but perhaps a few little girls in my system.

Happens all the time! I've found that making everyone a playlist on Windows Media Player helps. If we're out and about, I have an easier time convincing them to "turn it down" until we get home that way.

Some of the songs are just so... annoying. I never thought in a million years I'd have Ke$ha on my playlists!

haha! Well i don't know if i have more little ones than I do older ones, but either way, I think the little ones either outvoted the big ones or the big ones just give in a lot because I have kids songs on repeat. I don't mind I suppose, except when I've heard my little mermaid for the 20th time.

I always thought (before I knew I had DID) that I had extreme interests - which confused me. I loved the kid's stuff, but then I loved the thrilers and horrors and morbid music, and then I liked the comedies and romance, and then it goes up and down from one extreme to the next in seconds. Needless to say going to a shop to rent DVDs is a mission!!! I always need to get a few - one for everyone's taste! Now I find myself trying to figure out what "I" like, apart from everyone else. Quite tricky to do especially if you're co-conscious with someone trying to decide - gets very confusing lol

Since I discovered another little girl in my system named Alex, whenever she wants to come out I get this insane drive to want to climb a tree because she loves climbing. She's very daring and not scared of much and not scared of heights. Heaven help me if she's up a tall tree and switches back to me because i'll freak out - I am beyond scared of heights. I found out that as I grow older I get more scared of heights. There wouldn't be any specific reason for this do you think? Or could it be a "forgotten memory" of something that happened that one of my others knows about. I just know i'm ever so fearful and it just gets worse and I have no idea why.

Same here! It's in the background almost all the time. I can hear my inner voices over it yet hear the music too. It's freaky..very in line with the DID symptom of having "parallel thoughts" (even though it is music). I've noticed if I'm in a stressful situation, the music gets louder, then the inner talking gets overpowering, then I lose time.

And forget about choosing a song to listen to! Bob Dylan will sound amazing, then it instantly becomes repulsive and I need to listen to heavy metal. I have even found my ipod in my hand going through the music (rapid and brief period of a part taking over?).

Talking about "parallel thoughts" - I was convinced this was an ADD thing until I found out I had DID. So you're saying a DEFINITE DEFINITE symptom of DID is being able to do something, think 1 thing, while listening to music and sometimes even another train of thought too? Silly me, just reading what I wrote I realized how obvious that is! No wonder my mind always feels chaotic.

When I type on the computer, I can touch-type (type without looking). I can be typing out a document that I am reading on a piece of paper next to me and yet at the same time be thinking of something COMPLETELY different and perhaps even have music playing too... then when I have finished typing, I realized that I don't even know what I was typing but yet I somehow do know what I was typing and I had no spelling mistakes either. COMPLEX!

I always assumed it was either ADD or just the bonus of being a woman - serious multi tasking haha.

My thoughts are so jumbled and they jump from one extreme to another and they carry on like that all day every day. You would think it's tiring but I suppose after all these years you would be so used to it you think it's normal. I make other people tired. School teachers often say that they can't keep up with my train of thought lol

candyr2911 wrote:I always thought (before I knew I had DID) that I had extreme interests - which confused me.

Same here. Well, sort of, since I always knew something was going on... I was just in denial. But it was frustrating for me, because I would like some foods and then hate them, or I'd love these scented candles of mine and then think they smelled horrible. I refused to think there was a multiple situation going on. I just thought of my system members as "imaginary friends" or writing "muses"... easy to do because most of them are "fictional characters". But it was one of the things that brought me out of denial... there's no way my interests and likes/dislikes could swap THAT much.

humptydumpty wrote:I can hear my inner voices over it yet hear the music too. It's freaky..very in line with the DID symptom of having "parallel thoughts" (even though it is music). I've noticed if I'm in a stressful situation, the music gets louder, then the inner talking gets overpowering, then I lose time.

Yep.

candyr2911 wrote:Talking about "parallel thoughts" - I was convinced this was an ADD thing until I found out I had DID. ... I make other people tired. School teachers often say that they can't keep up with my train of thought lol

I was diagnosed with ADD when I was in like... 4th grade. I have rejected that diagnosis, because it just isn't true. I can focus really well... everyone else, not so much, and it's difficult to focus on outside stuff when you are trying to focus on inside conversations.

And yeah, we tend to wear people out. ^^; Sometimes we talk A LOT because there's three or four people trying to get their thoughts out.

haha you make me laugh! my 2 best friends say that I talk waaaaaaaaay 2 much - even the messages I send them through my phone they now call "essays" because I have too much to say to them!! At least I can feel reassured that it's not all just me!

candyr2911 wrote:Talking about "parallel thoughts" - I was convinced this was an ADD thing until I found out I had DID. So you're saying a DEFINITE DEFINITE symptom of DID is being able to do something, think 1 thing, while listening to music and sometimes even another train of thought too?

Two trains of thought simultaneously- Something like this, with everything happening at once. Parallel as in both at the same time. Here is an example:

Me: Ooh nice! Haven't heard this song in a long time!
1: This song just drags..stupid jams bands..What else is on (feeling his urge to switch the song)
...2: Yeah but he really likes it, So let's just listen to it (feeling went away)

Sometimes We're out and about and a child voice interrupts my thoughts and says something like "That car looks like a rocket ship!"

Sometimes I will be in a conversation with someone and I hear "That's not my voice!" in a stressed and confused 18 year old or so voice.

Or sometimes I suddenly feel the young boy and my voice turns childish..my thoughts seem to become parallel to his, even though I still feel present.

haha yes that sounds just like me... especially about getting the random comments made in the back of your mind about different topics. Sometimes it makes you feel so wacko and don't know what on earth is going on - like your mind is all over the place and you're so many things at once. Makes so much sense when you know you have DID.

Hrm, are parallel thoughts/multitasking in that way not just a normal skillset that people have? I do that sort of thing all the time. I used to be able to follow a TV program (listening only) while doing homework and thinking about some complex interpersonal problem at the same time. Or, I can have about three different mind tracks operational while doing data entry, sometimes even following a conversation with another person. However, whatever I am "doing" in the outside world (even executing complex tasks) while concentrating on inside thoughts, voices, music, etc. usually does not get properly recorded. It is almost like losing time, except it is more like someone else is doing outside stuff and I have a memory of that time being inside my head interacting with other parts (well, before I knew they were other parts, I guess I would have called it something else like "lost in thought").

Anyway, as for music, yes, a lot of the time. I have trouble putting on external music if I am trying to relax, though. It makes me anxious and keeps me awake. I don't know if it's because it distracts from the usual music inside my head or the "chatter" I get when I entered a relaxed state or just because as someone who plays a few musical instruments, parts of my brain get really focused on aspects of the music and it is hard to rest. I am very sensitive to noise in general. Despite having a lot of different "tracks" going on in my head all the time, I really can't stand to have multiple external tracks (like two different sets of music or music and TV or my H playing video games and TV) at the same time. I also seem to be able to hear things that otheres can't. This applies to both music/harmonies (it is probably a natural, not DID thing, as my mom is a musician professionally) and little things like a baby fussing in a far away room. People always comment on how sensitive/keen my hearing is. That being said, when I go deep inside, it can be like I hear nothing at all. My H has told me my daughter is practically yelling at me and I just am not there. Doesn't happen very often, thankfully.