Falling apart

I went out to two different psychiatrist's offices today to try and find one that would be able to help me as I am not satisfied with my current psychiatrist's office.

It really took a lot out of me.

I feel really disconnected, like I'm about to burst into tears, having flashbacks of painful memories, feeling worthless and depressed, feeling like I'm never gunna get better. I'm starting all over again with what's wrong with me. I'm sick of having to explain it. I'm sick of having to re-live it. I just want help.

I don't even remember what I told the second place about my symptoms. I don't remember talking to the guy, just being there. I know he had a bunch of peices of paper, but I wasn't really there if that makes since.

I feel like I'm falling apart. I feel like I'm not me. I guess I don't really know how I feel. I'm just...out of sorts with myself and I don't know how to pull myself back together.

Yeah, you are loosing your support system.

Try looking online for the qualities you are looking for. There are some links at the top of the page in the reference section. Better to do it quick and get it over with than let it linger though.

This will undoubtedly be a tough time as things linger up in the air and you are unsure of what is going to happen in the near future. These are really positive steps though. I was quite mortified to hear the other day that your crisis line never rang you back. I am glad that you are standing up to it and saying you need more than that. I really hope you find what you need soon. Must've been really hard going to those psychiatrist offices today. Especially two in one day. Be gentle with yourself now.

Bourbon

I feel a lot of that too.

That is amazing you went to 2 in a day. I hope you keep looking and find a great one.

I'm REALLY creeped out because I don't remember writing this post.

I don't remember going to two offices in a day, but I remember going to a lot of them recently.

I'm sticking with First Call For Help because they have a therapist or a social worker there 24/7. That's a big plus for me.