coming undone

brandic, I was researching a thread in this forum a couple of days ago, and i came upon one of your old posts. I'm sorry, i don't remember it fully. But as i recall it, you were asking, or seeking how to not be in such control. I honestly forget how you worded it, but what i thought of when i read it, was that perhaps what you are going through now, though certainly disconcerting, sounded like what you had been seeking in that post. You might go back and read some of your later posts and see what you think. I'm sorry i don't remember how far back it was. If i come across it again i will post the date k.
When i was on zoloft the last time i had developed a rash, and runny stools, so i went off of it. I would also recommend having a blood test done to check your liver. The second follow up appointment i had they tested mine, and it was fine. It is sad how it is now, with getting the generic, instead of the real thing. Wellbutrin, if i spelled that right, in the original form, always had worked great for me, but not the generic.
Anyway's blessings. I hope you are feeling better.

Thank you again, everyone, for your responses. I am actually doing a lot better. Today things seem to have calmed a bit. The intense derealization seems to have lifted. Fingers crossed they will stay that way.

Divided, I remember having certain symptoms pertaining to Zoloft (when I took it before) that made it harder during the day, so I began taking it at night. That's what I'm doing this time too. I haven't gotten any dizziness but I have had waves of nausea in addition to headaches these last few days since I've been taking it.

Alln1, thank you for reminding me of that earlier post about how to give up control. I think this might be precisely what I asked for, however scary it may feel. I also wanted to address something you mentioned earlier, and that was with my partner. I don't know why I couldn't talk to her, I didn't feel like "myself" but felt somewhere in between myself and another part, if that makes any sense. Often my switches aren't clear cut, or what part is forward isn't clear cut. One of the reasons I consider myself to have DDNOS versus DID... Also, my partner would be the last person in the world to be passive aggressive. I'm lucky in that way. Actually, she usually leaves me alone in the mornings, because usually mornings are very hard for me and I get overwhelmed easily. I've asked her to basically give me space and ignore me in the mornings, so the fact that she didn't realize I was still sleeping was no fault of hers.

brandic
That is great! Plus i have been looking up the differences in DID to learn more, or if i have any other symptoms in another category. Maybe it wasn't the right time for me to write what i did, i realized. Sometimes timing can be everything. So glad you r doing better!

Hey...

Just wanted to give everyone an update. I have been on the Zoloft for a week now, and things have calmed down quite a bit. I no longer feel like I'm coming undone, or that my brain is coming apart. I'm still having anxiety, but things aren't as crazy and out of control as they were before I began the meds. I also have had surprisingly low side effects.

Thanks again for everyone's support!!

Brandic

So glad to hear things have calmed down for you a bit. That's good news!

Yay!

That's good to hear.