I want to learn.

Silly things. Little things like this. It makes me wonder.

I want to learn chess. I know how all the pieces move, but I'm absolutely horrible at it. Very small children and computers on the 'beginner' setting can still beat me at chess. Rather easily.

So me and my host have a chessboard. We go back and forth, sometimes, trying to play a game. Whenever one of us is 'out' and notices that the post-it-note with 'Your Turn' written on it is on their side of the board, then we make our next move. But it still takes forever, and I still lose every time.

So after a long enough time of losing what seems like it should be a simple game of strategy, I start to wonder. Is there something in me that just... refuses to learn chess? I'm not bad at strategy- not at all. Other games, like Go and Connect Four and things, I'm fine at. It's just chess.

I've started to wonder if it's specifically because the only I play chess against is my Host. I know I was created specifically to protect her. Does that mean that there's something inside of me that's... I don't know, programmed to be unable to beat her? Or am I just ultimately destined to be horrible at chess, and nothing else?

Just wondering if anyone else has any experiences like that.

I posted a new topic, Movie, about the movie Queen To Play. It's about chess and i highly recommend it. For my self there are some things that i enjoy doing, and i do them just because i do enjoy them. I don't have to be good at them. Some things take alot of practice, and some alot of study. If you want to learn more i am sure you will. Have fun.
I have i younger part that likes to put puzzles together online. She likes it when she can get a better time than others, but she only really works on the very easy and easy ones. And can't even relate to people who can do the difficult or very difficult ones together, in no time flat. But it's ok, she still has fun. Not meaning to compare.
There are things that i am horrible at. If i don't like doing them i don't. If i do than i just do my best and don't give up. Improvement takes time. Can the two of you talk about the game together and share your feelings, maybe gain some knowkedge about each others thought, feelings on the subject. It might be revealing if you can. Blessing

I can relate. I'm not sure how to circumvent it in a timely manner however(timely being defined as under a year or two years). Persistence is a key though.
I have things I love to do, I'm absolutely horrible at it, but I still keep trying. Lots and lots of research, just absorbing every possible bit of information about the topic/skill I find challenging. I'll get any indepth book on the subject, text, movie, etc. anything. I tend to be obsessive, so say for pies. I wanted to have a nice pie, I was tired of soggy bottom pies, so I made at least one pie a week for several months, read Everything I could get my hands on, full pie immersion.
Anyway, yeah, ditto what Alln1 said.

Borg
I was wondering if you have seen the movie Waitress? I haven't but in it the waitress, i understand makes alot of pies. Also you can watch on Youtube, if you have access to that, Patty Griggin singing her song Making Pies. Or not. Peace