Discovered an injured part...don't know wt to do

Hi everyone. This is Hailey. I'm so worried
I suspect that we have a deeply-hurt alter inside we don't notice before. Im not sure. So i really hope i can get some advice here. It's a bit long! Thanks for your time

Last night, a part of us suddenly had an emotional breakdown. I thought that was Ana. There were flashbacks of the past bad memories. She was frightened. She said she didn't want to be alone. She was afraid that im just her imagination. And she even tried to take the cutter to __ you know. I tried my very best to comfort her and let her to pour her heart out. Finally, like 20 minutes later, she calmed down.

During the time i was comforting her, i somehow felt that she couldn't be Ana. Ana is a happy child. Even she does have sad periods sometimes, that kind of breakdown seemed really impossible to happen on her. And that unknown "she" didn't talk or act like a child too.

And last night before we slept, Ana came out as usual to play her mobile phone game before sleep. And I asked her if she was alright now (because i still assumed that was Ana). Ana said ya, actually she was playing the game and not really paying attention to me. I was thinking how come she recovered so fast and there is no trace of sadness left on her at all. So i further asked if that was really her. Ana told me she didn't know !!

And now i suspect that the one had breakdown last night (idk her name and i'll identify her as A) is actually our injured part and the original. Because before the splitting we had serious depression and suicidal tendency. But after splitting, both of us, Ana and me Hailey, does not have any emotional problems! That's very strange. And I thought that it is DID cured us. But now, i'm afraid actually all the negative emotions and bad memories have gone to A. I'm very sorry for her. Though Ana and i said before that we didn't want new one, now we both agree that to take care of A is our shared responsibility and we'll never leave her alone or reject her.

Actually it was not the first time A shown up, but just that i always used to think A was a depressed Ana. Because A did respond when i call her Ana while talking to her. In some ways A did pretend to be Ana. I think she didn't mean that but she did it unconsciously.

Ah so strange... No one in my system can help me to figure it out. I feel like a single parent. By the way, Ana does not show up today, except for just a while in the morning. She was always here with me before.

I'd be very thankful if anyone here can give me a few words!!


P.s. Something i, as a new member, really want to say is that people in this forum are so helpful and nice. They spend time to read others' stories and share their opinion and advice. That's so heartwarming!

Wow! Its so cool you have so much communication with you system.
For the most part I dont know all of them and they dont talk to me much, I just hear em, and the angry ones yell at me from time to time. When they come out , they just come out and sometimes I dont get any names, I dont know whats going on really and not sure if its just me!

But, if you let them express themselves, whatever part it may be, perhaps an angry or sad one, let them write a poem ,or do something creative or that is telling of their struggles?
I dont know if this will help, I have a part thats sui* and very violently depressed.... It helps when I let her do something creative so things dont get out of hand...and to stay in safe places.

Im not very aware of all of them yet, even though I believe I am co-conscious with many . I dont know hah.

Im not sure if this helps? But I hope your able to sort this out!

Thanks for the reply TinyPieces.
Finally im able to sort it out... She wasn't pretending to be Ana, but actually she is Ana. Very confusing Now we've got two Ana at different ages. A real-time post-trauma Ana and a 10yrs old pre-trauma Ana (who is referred to Little Ana now).
It seems weird to me but it just happens in this way. I don't know why we split like that

And interestingly(idk if this is the right word), we're having a persistent headache-like sensation in our head since yesterday. I think maybe it's due to the switching between Ana and little Ana?

I have done all kinds of things in my system to fix Alters

1. Magic has worked wonders. It's a light form of self hypnosis that works well.
2. I have showers that dissolve burdens, introjected things and costumes.
3. Education - Read a lot of current DID literature by experts in the field and ask that all parts listen.

These 3 things have been key for me in healing parts.