Therapy update

So I mentioned a couple of months ago that I was about to start seeing a therapist, and I don't believe I've said anything else since. I guess it's time for an update, as some important things have happened. I initially used my therapist to deal with my depression, and didn't really let on about any further concerns, other than the occasional vague hint at other symptoms. Anyways, I have come to like and trust my therapist quickly, and finally opened up to her.

At the end of last week's session, I told her about my blackouts. She really perked up at that point, and had a couple of questions, but we had to end. Anyways, this week, more came out. She connected my headaches and ringing ears, I told her about how my voice and demeanor change in different situations, and how I've only fairly recently started to notice this about myself, yet others have pointed it out more quickly. Finally she asked if I hear voices. I stuttered around it and didn't really want to come out and say it, but I finally told her that yes, I do. We also started to get into my childhood and the abuse that occurred.

She never came out and said DID, but she started referring to dissociation, and how everyone has parts, but that my parts might be more split off than others, and that they were created when I used dissociation to cope with abuse. In other words, she hit all the keywords of DID. She also told me that she had dealt with this before, and that the key was to confront the traumatic memories in order to integrate the parts. I have some of the same concerns about integration that so many others have expressed though. I guess we'll get to that later though.

Anyways, it's not official yet, but it sounds like my T is pretty quickly settling in on DID or a similar DDNOS.

Sounds good raoul_duke!

under ice wrote:Sounds good raoul_duke!

Haha, well, I guess. I'm a bit nervous. I've suspected it for a while now, but have always had so many doubts, but now I guess there's at least some degree of validity to them, for good or ill. I guess if this is the case then we've got a long road ahead, and I'm worried that things will get worse before they get better.

I think that's really great!
And I hope that this therapist works out for you. So far, she sounds like she's getting it right, and will be very helpful for you.

I'm really glad