Memories, can't cope *triggers*

So I spoke to my Mother last night. We've never had the best relationship (she's one of those people who can be ill but everyone else's illness' are #######4) but I thought maybe, since I moved away from home for once she might be supportive... so I told her about the DID. Her response was (after me having to tell her what it was): "Well I never noticed" In her own special way she was calling me a #######4. She then said maybe she should just get me and take me 'home'.

I broke down into tears. After all the $#%^ that's gone down before I should have known better than to expect support but I hoped, maybe just this once. I shouldn't have cared about what she said, but if she thinks I'm going back there to her (which would make me in the same small town as Father) then she can go ###$ herself.

Sorry guys just had to get that out, it's been eating at me all day.

Dark xx

DarkenedAngel wrote:Her response was (after me having to tell her what it was): "Well I never noticed"

That sounds very invalidating. I'm sorry she said that to you.

She then said maybe she should just get me and take me 'home'.

She really thought that would help? Doesn't she realize that she is part of the problem?

I broke down into tears. After all the $#%^ that's gone down before I should have known better than to expect support but I hoped, maybe just this once.

Maybe just this once... I know that feeling. It hurts to be willing to be vulnerable just one more time in hopes for a caring response. Just once, could they just react with kindness. You aren't asking for much. Then you go out on a limb, hand extended to them, all they have to do is reach out and take it. Just then they shake the branch and watch you fall.

Trust is something that should be earned, not given.

I shouldn't have cared about what she said, but if she thinks I'm going back there to her (which would make me in the same small town as Father) then she can go ###$ herself.

There you go! You know what is good for you!

Sorry guys just had to get that out, it's been eating at me all day.

Sometimes just getting it out helps. Don't ever feel bad about doing that.