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Hey brandic if you change your mind and want to chat please do. I find myself often in the same head space you are. Denial, belief. Over and over. I agree if we believe it is it true because we believe it or are we finally believing what is true. I have no idea. Is my illness because I choose to believe I've compartmentalized my thoughts into different ppl or is it because my mind is made of several ppl. I have no idea.

What I do know is that it is hard. It is hard to deal with. It's hard to know why we are this way which leads us searching for cause. But I think like any "illness" cause is not always known. Ppl exposed to radiation get cancer. But cancer develops for a lot of reasons we don't understand. So I bet the same is for MPD (the term I prefer because i dont lise time and am co I think it makes for sense). So you might never know what has "caused" you to be the way you are. But the answer to being ok with yourself i think you have to not ask why am I this way but how am I going to be, being this way.


This was as much for me as it was for you so thank you as always brandic for helping me find the words.

Sam

Are you doing ok brandic? I hope that you editing this is not a sign that you are doing poorly? Feel free to talk more if you need...