Trauma - pt

I heard that DID can be caused by possible trauma in the past.... Well, for the life of me I can't remember any horrible type of experiences, and none of my alters even have a hint of bad experiences either. Is it possible that it could have been caused in a different manner?

I was always alone as a child. My parents fought, but otherwise (to my knowledge) no harm came my way. In school, I couldn't make friends, and I was always teased and bullied. Is it possible that this could have triggered it?

Well, I suppose for one, it's always possible that no one can remember or can tell you what's happened. Because I know for a while, I didn't remember a lot of things, and it's only as more people have made themselves known that I've received some of their memories.

However, I also can't see why being bullied and always alone wouldn't have left its mark as well, especially if you felt emotionally neglected. It doesn't always have to be extreme physical or sexual abuse, neglect and emotional abuse and bullying can certainly take their toll.

Hey,

I'm wondering how long you have known about the DID and your alters? As Eisa said it is possible that they have done a marvellous job at hiding the trauma to protect you but they are just not ready yet to let go of the secrets.

But it is of course possible that what you do remember is enough to cause your mind to need to fragment to deal with it. Either way, your answers will come in time. I think until then your mind will just remain full of 'maybe's' which is something I'm having to accept.

Bourbon

It could be the experiences you remember that have caused your DID. Being alone and being bullied and teased could certainly have created the splits if it was more than your mind could deal with at the time.

Alternatively, perhaps there is more abuse that they have been doing a good job at keeping secret from you. Or perhaps there may be more abuse or trauma hidden away in some other parts that you may not have discovered yet. This may or may not be the case for you.

I think either way, it could be useful for you to have a supportive therapist to help you work through these things. One knowledgable about DID preferably. Do you have a therapist currently?

I have known about them for a while now, and I think I can remember thinking something was definitely 'off' by sixth grade, because "imaginary friends" aren't normal at that age.

And no, I do not have a current therapist. I tried at first, but something went wrong and I haven't tried again. I really am hoping I do find out, though. Thanks to you all clearing this up for me; it's a question that's been bothering me for a while.