Weird physical sensations this morning-TRIGGER

I have a bundle of questions to ask, simply because this was a very new feeling for me. I've never heard of anyone experiencing this, so maybe this isn't even the right forum to ask. But I am just curious to know if anyone else has experienced anything like this.

This morning I was watching an episode of Law and Order that was a little triggering but I kept watching anyways. It didn't seem to be causing much of a problem, and I really like the lead character and how she deals with kids who have been traumatized

I lay down cuz I was feeling tired, and started to feel extremely freaky. Physically, not emotionally. I felt overwhelmingly aware of everything around me, and it was like I could feel my whole body times 7. It was a scary feeling, and I was huddled in a fetal position for a really long time.

I know a part of dissociation is starting to feel like you're not real, but...what about when you start to feel REALLY real? It's like the other extreme. I couldn't get out of bed, I couldn't do anything but lay there and sit with this overwhelming feeling that my body existed and was physically present. At one point I thought maybe this is what integration feels like...but wouldn't I get more memories or something if that was the case?

I was in bed for two hours like that, but it felt like 30 minutes.

I'm not scared or anything now, just...has anyone ever experienced anything like that before? I appreciate any responses...

The only time I've been like that is when I focus to put my thoughts right behind my eyes. In this book I read almost a decade ago, the Gift of Dyslexia, I read about about moving yourself to behind your eyes so that you can be present more in class. I noticed recently, I have been defaulting to a little back in my head, so things are rather foggy generally, so when I push forward, everything is super bright or crisp! It's so weird! It didn't feel overwhelming though, so a bit different.

was it a pleasurable sensation? Are you working on integration right now?

brandonsmom777 wrote:was it a pleasurable sensation? Are you working on integration right now?

That's the thing, it felt scary. Vulnerable. I didn't feel like I could move from the position I was in. I don't think I have alters to integrate specifically but I am working on integrating certain experiences from my past, which I think is the case with any kind of trauma.

Thank you for your replies...haven't felt that way since so that's a good thing I guess

DT, I recall you have described this before. And as I said before I think you are simply coming out of a chronic state of dissociation, and because it is not your habitual state it feels strange and unfamiliar and frightening. But it is normal and healthy.