Usernames :)

my name is about shedding light on all of my parts.. The ability to understand which was once unknown.

Well when I made my user name i noticed 3 things about it, after it was spontaneously generated.

Firstly: It can be read "anyone", sort of a play on nemo, "no-one"

Secondly: It looks like "neon", who doesn't love neon colors?

Thirdly: i guess this was in the way the word looked. Neone. Look its sort of even, an NE and then an O and then another NE

which if you are familiar with myers-briggs typology NE is intuition and i am INTP.

I'm not normally very creative but people have mentioned to me that I go from being like an angel to seeing red, 'angelred' didn't sound right to me so I chose 'angelfire' instead, its kind of like opposites but it works just like me sorry if none of that makes sense, having a little trouble concentrating.

Everyone has such creative names! Bumping up in case anyone else would like to share their inspiration for their username.

My old username, captain ad hoc: blistering barnacles!... "Ad hoc" because I feel like the part of me that talks is in large part defined by the context where I'm in.

Anagram... I have always been fascinated by words and language. Constantly rearranging the letters of my being into different words. Sometimes voluntarily, sometimes not.

Just a quote by Andre Gide.

Mine is a play on the words "me" and "devious". It's mostly because I feel like I'm somehow deviated from society. Not only that, but I can be quite mischievous if I want. ;P It's meant to be cute, in a way, but at the same time it has a little bit of meaning.

I feel as if my soul is consistently growing, changing and becoming something new... Kind of like how a snake sheds it's skin. There you have it.

Crimsoncorsair wrote:Why would you want to fake DID? Why whould people want DID? It makes no sense to me or any other of my headmates.

While I don't agree with the reasons, when I think about them it makes sense to me, even if it does seem desperate or a bit far-fetched, it makes sense.
1) People may want it because they seek attention, to be different, to stand out from the crowd. So they may choose to fake it to receive this attention and fill whatever void they have. Have you ever been jealous of someone, say, with a broken arm or something? Who gets attention and fawned over and is helped by everyone? It's kinda like that, if that makes sense.
2) People may want it because they don't truly understand it, and to them it may seem fun or even amusing. For whatever reasons that I don't understand, they could see it that way. If they're younger, like kids, it may seem fun because alters can be like imaginary friends, so I can see immature pre-teens and even young teens faking this if they're lonely or something.
3) People may want it for malicious reasons; so that they can do things and blame them on their "alters" and thus escape any responsibility for their actions since it "wasn't them".
4) People may be very impressionable, and if they match even one symptom, they might start to believe that they have it and so might start faking it to try and "spark" something that's not there, or even to try and fit it somewhere they think they belong.
5) Some people are drawn to drama subconsciously or even consciously; they always need to have a problem or something always needs to be "up" with them for whatever reasons. So they might want it or fake it because it "spices up" their life and drama can be created out of thin air so things are never "boring".

Like I said, I don't agree with any of these reasons, and it's hard for me to see it from that point of view, but they do make sense.

As for United States of Tara, I don't think it glorified DID at all, I just think that most of the population isn't mature enough or understanding enough to process a show like that properly and not be so impressionable. I mean, look at the Reality TV show craze. Drama seems to be cool for some reason. That and it is a TV show, it can't be too serious or no one will watch it, and people can mistake comedy that's weaved into something as "this is fun to have and deal with" for some reason.

Getting back to the thread topic though, my username is simple. I grew up a tomboy; short hair, boys' clothes, sports, the works. Still am a tomboy sometimes. And 24 comes from a nickname I got while I was in my high school marching band. We were doing a marching drill that was 24 counts, but I hadn't heard that so I had no idea how many steps I was supposed to march. So I paused at count 8, 10, 12, 16, 18, 22, and then I went one step further than everyone else to count 25. Our band director picked up his megaphone and said, "Are we sure we know how to count to 24, Cassandra?" And from then on, everyone called me "24".

Music is really important to our system. When we came here Nin only knew about 4 of us or so and I was one of the ones she knew best. Tori Amos is one of both of ours favourite artists and her music always resonates so deeply with us. Most of our usernames/e-mail names/etc online are inspired from music, and especially different songs by Tori Amos. So we were inspired by this song for our username, resonating with finding and talking to our alters, realizing this is real, feeling like impostors (denial) and sadness, but also seeing hope and knowing we can do this together):

Tori Amos - A sorta Fairytale

on my way up north
up on the ventura
i pulled back the hood
and i was talking to you
and i knew then it would be
a life long thing
but i didn't know that we
we could break a silver lining

and i'm so sad
like a good book
i can't put this day back
a sorta fairytale
with you
a sorta fairytale
with you

things you said that day
up on the 101
the girl had come undone
i tried to downplay it
with a bet about us
you said that-
you'd take it
as long as i could
i could not erase it

and i'm so sad
like a good book
i can't put this day back
a sorta fairytale
with you
a sorta fairytale
with you

and i ride along side
and i rode along side
you then
and i rode along side
till you lost me there
in the open road
and i rode along side
till the honey spread
itself so thin
for me to break your bread
for me to take your word
i had to steal it

and i'm so sad
like a good book
i can't put this day back
a sorta fairytale
with you
a sorta fairytale
with you

i could pick back up
whenever i feel

down new mexico way
something about
the open road
i knew that he was
looking for some indian blood and
find a little in you find a little
in me we may be
on this road but
we're just
impostors
in this country you know
so we go along and we said
we'd fake it
feel better with
oliver stone
till i
almost smacked him -
seemed right that night and
i don't know what
takes hold
out there in the
desert cold
these guys think they must
try and just get over on us

and i'm so sad
like a good book
i can't put this
day back
a sorta fairytale
with you
a sorta fairytale
with you

and i was ridin' by
ridin' along side
for a while till you lost me
and i was ridin' by
ridin' along till you lost me
till you lost
me in
the rear
view
you lost me
i said

way up north i took my day
all in all was a pretty nice
day and i put the hood
right back where
you could taste heaven
perfectly
feel out the summer breeze
didn't know when we'd be back
and i, i don't
didn't think
we'd end up like
like this