Found something today..

Well, today had started out weird. I was melancholy and distressed over someone crying inside. Of course, they were crying because of a dream that we woke up from, and her love wasn't beside us... it just got worse from there.

My hyper-sexuality kicked in. I've been grinding my teeth all day. Then, out of no-where, the dissociation turned so bad, my husband had to shake me out of it. He said he had been trying to get me to talk for over an hour, and I wouldn't respond to anything. He said I was walking around in a daze and had even locked myself in the room for a little while. So, there's some lost time for me. Anyway, I got up and walked into the bedroom to see if I could remember why I had been in there.

I found this picture:



It says, on the top, 'The mirror. It always started with the mirror'. Then, there's a half-face drawing that's sketched pretty quick. I'm a perfectionist; if I sketch something, it's never quick. I have to make every line perfect. Anyway, it says 'As we fade away...' near the head, and 'Who are we?' underneath it. Then, the two stick figures, 'So Dissconnected out of touch.'. Disconnected is spelled wrong, and the handwriting is more..loopy? The last picture is of a tiny stick person reaching up for what looks like a half-heart balloon zooming away.

Anywho....I don't really know what to make of it. I keep trying to ask who drew it, but everyone is eerily silent. I'm a little freaked out, to be honest.

I hope whoever drew these very symbolic drawings comes forth and lets you know. They seem to be very personal to this person and any attempt at trying to make sense of them from where I'm sitting would probably just be offensive to the artist!

I hope you are feeling less "freaked out" now you have had time to digest it.

Bourbon

I occasionally find drawings or writings that I don't remember doing. Some of them are very cute children's drawings and other times they're more serious. It used to freak me out a lot, but amazingly, you do get used to it, at least as much as you can get used to something like that. Hopefully you'll get whomever is making these drawings to speak with you soon.

The last picture is of a tiny stick person reaching up for what looks like a half-heart balloon zooming away.

That's so sad.

Thanks for sharing linaeve. This is so interesting. Have you had any more insight as to what it means? I also think it is sad.

dividedtruth89 wrote:Thanks for sharing linaeve. This is so interesting. Have you had any more insight as to what it means? I also think it is sad.

No, not really. I went to meditate last night, and was greeted by the face of a younger, sadder me. This might sound really strange (at least it does to me) but she kept pointing out that my legs weren't shaved, and kept asking why I wasn't going to shave them. When I shrugged and said 'we're married now and have a child; leg shaving is low on the priority list', she looked extremely confused and started becoming incoherent...then she kind of faded away.

Everyone else is still pretty quiet, only chiming in to comment on whatever I'm doing at the moment. I'm trying not to freak out about them being 'gone'; I know it happens sometimes. I just wish they would be more inclined to respond to me!!!