I'm wary of people helping me because...

I'm wary of people helping me because...

1) People always leave, even when I need them, despite what they've said or promised in the past.

2) I am weak if I accept help. My problems and my life are my own, I need to deal with them myself.

3) Accepting help is to be dependent upon someone else, and I hate relying on other people. They are not reliable.

4) There's always a price or a debt to be paid off later.

5) Burdening people with my problems turns me into a burden overall, and I don't want to drag people down.

6) I'm not worthy of their help. Whatever problems I have I deserve, and I'm supposed to be able to cope with my own life.

7) Their actions confuse me. I don't understand why anyone would want to help me without having an ulterior motive behind it. I don't understand why anyone would actually care about me, and I don't understand why they would burden themselves with me. My confusion turns to fear and wariness.

1. If I ask for help, I will be ignored.
2. If I ask for help, I will be made to feel stupid.
3. If I ask for help, that means I'm weak.
4. If I ask for help, I will end up getting hurt because people abandon you, even those who are trying to help.

I don't necessarily believe these things all the time, but they are definitely core beliefs, and big motivating factors in my life and in my decisions. I have to ask for help though, over and over again, if I want to heal and get better. I know I can't do it alone.