Canceled session ARGH *might trigger*

Well, my T canceled her Thursday sessions for a doctor's appointment.

There's so much going on right now, and I really needed to see her. I just got out of the military and that transition is much bigger than I anticipated. My dad is still in ICU. My mother is still being a complete....___fill in the blank___. My husband just informed me that he wants to quit school, thus forgoing the money he gets paid to GO to school. He wants to work full time, but he hasn't even begun looking for a job???

I know she's human. She has a life outside of her clients. I was just so looking forward to talking to her, to let this all out, in person. Usually I see her every Thursday, but I saw her last Tuesday, and now I won't see her till next Thursday...it seems like an eternity away. There's so much chaos. I'm contemplating heading to the ER. My self-harmer is active again, and I'm extremely worried. And for some reason, I keep thinking every loud noise is going to kill me. For example, f-18 went over our house and I paniced, thinking an astroid was hitting. I went and hid under my bed. I was so scared. This so sucks.

Linaeveworkman, I'm so sorry that you're having a hard time and now won't be able to talk to your therapist. I remember you saying that your T did in fact suggest a hospital stay. Maybe this is something you need to go ahead and look into?

Is there anyway you can schedule an earlier time next week to see her, like Monday? Hang in there...support is on this forum if nowhere else...hugs i fyou want them.

Wow yeah I can see how a cancelled session now is the last thing you want to deal with on top of everything else. Perhaps ask her if you can see her earlier than Thursday, as divided said? Surely she will understand considering everything that is going on for you right now! Worth a shot?

Bourbon

I'm so sorry things are so difficult for you right now. *hugs if wanted* If you can't get the appointment to happen earlier than next Thursday, is there anything that might help you to express some emotion and temporarily help you feel better? Such as writing a letter to her that you can bring with you to the appointment, or someone else that you can talk to in person about at least some of these things? (Like talk to your husband about your dad and the transition from the military). Perhaps even talk to to yourself. Sometimes I find that just saying things aloud to myself helps me to feel better. Maybe play some loud music so that you can yell and rant if you want to. As for your self-harmer, definitely make safety plans. Try to make your environment as safe as you can, and have numbers for crisis hotlines. If you feel like you need to, don't hesitate to check into the hospital. You definitely have support on here, and I hope these difficult times will become easier for you. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Well, I'll be seeing you guys sometime next week. I'm heading to the ER now. Just got the call that they moved my dad out of ICU, so I feel a little better about being confined. I didn't want to be in the hospital and something happen and be unable to leave. So, talk to you all next week.

We'll all miss you, but I'm happy you are doing this for yourself! Get some much needed rest.

I'm glad that you're able to get yourself what you need. We will miss you! My thoughts and prayers will be with you. *hugs if wanted*