brandic wrote:Does anyone else ever feel extreme loneliness overtake them? Like everyone who ever cares just ends up leaving? Cause that's how I'm feeling right now. And it's making me really sad. I have two friends both of which I consider to be my closest friends who have totally pulled away. For seemingly no apparent reason. Won't return calls, won't answer texts, won't respond to emails. These two friends don't know each other but they both happen to be pulling away at the same time. Why is it that I can't maintain close friendships...? I can't imagine anything I did to push them away... I really do think I'm an easy person to be friends with and don't expect a lot from them. And yet here we go again - close friends not wanting to be friends anymore for reasons I can't explain and they won't even bother giving me any sort of explanation. My partner says its not me it's them, and that it's their loss, but after this happens over and over and over again it's truly hard not to take it personally and wonder what the heck I am doing wrong... Why do I bother even trying to make and keep friends when this sort of thing happens.
I apologize for the depressing post of self-pity. I'm just feeling sad and lonely and wasn't really sure where else to turn.
I'm sorry you are going through this, hon. -hugs if you want them-
I understand what you are going through and how much it hurts. I had a whole group of very close individuals, which we did many things together and rarely did things seperate. Since my break down in January, and my diagnosis of DID (which I told them to help them understand...it did the opposite), they have gradually went from including me in outings, to completely forgetting I exist. We were planning a really nice community gathering as a group, and I was supposed to be the RP, and at first everything was great. Then, one of my friends started taking over for me, and I faded away. No matter how hard I struggled, they are lost to me now.
So I understand the pain and loneliness you're going through, and I'm deeply sorry you are experiencing it. Good, supportive friends are hard to find in this day and age.... Though I can say you always have this forum, sometimes that simply isn't enough. We all crave the actual interaction on a more physical/emotional/spiritual (in a way) level....and being an anonomys face and name online isn't always the best.
-hugs, if you'd like more of them-
Susan (1)[24]-ANP/Host.
Susan (2)[24]-Apathetic.
Eve (1) [4-6]-craves touch.
Lin (2) [late 20's]-logical.
Cheryl (1) [16]-Social.
Cheryl (2) [18-19]-'Cleans up chaos'.
Sara (1) [17-18]-Sexual.
Sarah(2) [early 20's]-wife-type.
Sam (1) [unsure]-Anger and repression.
The Box (2) [unsure]-Sam's jailer, persecutor.
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