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Kheo Dofh wrote:The personnalties have the same identity.

Funny thing: The "original" personnality is the least active one.

I'm not torn, I'm 100% untrusting of anyone.

And that's supposed to comfort me how? A.D.I.D.A.M.

We thought so too, or tried to force that till it just had to be acknowledged. ~shrugs~
Trying to force memories of being partially aware and being an influence, but not in control to be... like memories of being in control/fully present got too hard to maintain.

There is no "original" here. There's just me. And me. And me and me and me.
And more that are all me. Some just have names now. All of me thought we had the same identity, but it turns out that we were wrong. We all share the identity of "me". We just aren't each other, as I said.

Then why would you be here, trusting us with this info? Just something to think about.
So you don't trust. That's your choice. Only you can change that; nobody's going to force you, nobody CAN change that, and it's your right and freedom to feel and act that way, and to chose that. I'm not going to argue with you about it, as it's not my place to say, and I get the feeling that you'd rather not have others disrespect you by implying that you "have" to do what they think you ought to, or that you somehow don't have a choice or whatnot.

Sorry if I came off that way; it wasn't intended.

I'm not sure how it's supposed to help. I didn't write it. I don't actually remember what was written and I don't think I'm inclined to go back and read or drag out whatever part did and get the info from them.
But, regardless, it was said because whatever said it thought it might help. I don't know you; I can't read your mind. All I can do is offer what seems useful to me in case it might be helpful. And if it isn't, that's not really in my control. So. ~shrugs~

Also, I don't know what your acronym means.

I like your understanding of DID Acey! Your signature is perfect!

I'm lucky to have three ANP, I can call them Me, myself and I, and not just Ulrick1 and such.

How mine got created is weird, because it isn't from my parent's abuse, it's from the people in general's abuse. At first, it was just "Me", overly emotionnal, naive, particulary feminine and fragile. But then, when I first come into contact with people other than my family, that didn't work so well. So "Me" divided into 2, to give "Myself". "Myself" is rationnal, egotistical and was agressive. So it continued on until I reached high school. I didn't bother to have friends until then, and most people wouldn't even tal to me because I was violent. Along the way, the copycat trait filled each personnality to give something rather drastic.

In high school, most people rejected me for many reasons. When I got to 3rd grade of highschool, "Me" had surfaced once again and I was stuck with a transgender dilemna. During the summerfrom 2nd to 3rd grade, I developped a third personnality, "I". "I" is sort of your exact depiction of evil. Except without the vices."I" started blocking any emotionnal flux I had and took over for a bit. I got expelled that year, and it seems like after that I had a manic episode, given how I genrally interacted with people.

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I constantly get banned from here because of "I"...

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Anyways, ADIDAM was a reference to A.D.I.D.A.S.. Given the current context, I hope you can figure out the M without me

Fascinating!!!!

I do have a tiny bit of advise. In your signature you say you must suppress ...

Try to instill communication between all 3 parts. Don't deny they are who they are. Let them express their feelings and give them what they did not get... understanding, love, etc...

What you describe as your childhood though, from my understanding does not result in DID. That sort of horrible abuse must result in something though!

DID is formed when very young, when the brain is able to imagine well. Usually before the age of 5, but I have read a few reports of it happening up to the age of 9. I am not saying you don't have it, but from what you describe as your childhood it sounds like you might have something else. Unless that abuse from others was when you were a young child. Normally it involves sexual abuse too from someone you should be able to trust, like a parent, but again, not always.

I strongly suggest you see a therapist. If nothing else you can find out what you have so you can work on it.

It was at age 6-7, then 14-15

Then DID may just fit!

I have the vague impression if I tell a person he'll be expecting me to switch personnalities midspeech... Doesn't happen that often

Kheo Dofh wrote:I have the vague impression if I tell a person he'll be expecting me to switch personalities midspeech... Doesn't happen that often

It does for me. I just use to cover it up. Now I stop and realize what's going on.

I did a streak of five 1-3 changes. Gave a contradictory speak

tylas, asking about a person's abuse history isn't the best way to go about figuring out if they have DID, since lot of them don't remember the abuse

Could someone briefly explain to me why you guys seem to put so much weight into which ones are ANPs/EPs? I don't see why it's so important to define them in that way.