Dating problems and related stuff...

This made me feel embarassed, I took it away.

I feel similarly in that I am constantly battling. Sometimes, the totally adult part of me is open to a relationship, and willing to look into something long term. Yuck that girl is too refined and not fun at all. Very composed and reserved EEEWW. But then I have that physical part that really doesn't want a relationship, just wants to be an average, hormonal, sexy college girl

The part that wins is the child part...we're not old enough. And too shy.

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I hope people don't find my posts appalling or anything, I know there are cultural differences that I might not be able to take into consideration well enough.

I'm seriously not getting any enjoyment of telling these things, although I'm relieved that I did tell. It would be different in real life, just to think for how long and how many meetings it would take before I could tell about this to a therapist. I'm not emotional anymore when it comes to the things I told, because they are not happening now. Of course if I start to dwell on them it makes me feel that I've failed as a human being, or maybe I'm from another planet because things have been so complicated.

I've mentioned it earlier somewhere that I was hypersexual as a kid and to some extent when I was in my teens. Well, I ain't anymore. I don't know if it's relevant considering my later life. Things seem to change so much in my life, I can't rely on anything. Maybe I'll fall in love tomorrow.