What would you call this? Switching, blending, integrating?

*possibly triggering-child pieces*

So what is it if I stay myself but am constantly having these spontaneous child-like facial expressions or movements or phrases emerge at random times? For instance, my look of disgust is no longer an adult look of disgust(well, sometimes). A lot of times it's like inside I'm saying this child-like "ewwee!" Or a lot of times my look of sadness is a child like face, like saying inside "that hurts my feelings". Other times it's a child-like "I'm embarrassed now", or "go away and leave me alone I don't like you" or "this is scary!"

I've translated all these emotions into adult behaviors before, but lately, the erupt in a child-like mannerism. What is this? Child pieces trying to come out? Blending? Integrating? My memories usually don't change. I mean my feelings about certain memories change, or random, fairly neutral memories may pop into my head that I haven't thought about or remembered in a really long time or had forgotten that those things happened...but it's not like I never knew they happened...I just haven't remembered them like I remember them now. Would you say this is blending or whatever? I just feel like personality changes all the time, but not necessarily memories change. Feelings with memories change.

Its not integrating, depending on whether you are 100% in control could be a mix between blending and co-consciousness? do you feel like you are acting like a child (all your feelings change), or that "you" (your body) is acting like a child and you aren't controlling it? i think it can also be a mix of the two. hope that helps.

katana wrote:do you feel like you are acting like a child (all your feelings change), or that "you" (your body) is acting like a child and you aren't controlling it? i think it can also be a mix of the two. hope that helps.

Usually it's like my body is changing. Like my thoughts are normal adult thoughts, but the face is a child's face. Or no thoughts at all, just blank inside my head and a facial expression popping out. Other times (rarely), it's the feelings with the physical changes. Like something that wouldn't normally make me ashamed I lower my head and say in a child like voice "okay, sorry", feeling child like emotions of shame and embarrassment.

Sounds like a lot of passive influence including some blending.

what's passive influence? That's a very foreign concept for me. Explain?

Passive influence includes all the varied phenomena of DID in which the alter in front remains in executive control but is influenced by one or more other alters. Passive influence includes all the Schneiderian first-rank symptoms, flooding, and blending. I am not sure what to call the partial control of facial expressions, because it is not strictly passive yet does not involve a loss of your executive control.

DID authority Richard P. Kluft has written that it is common to see DID clients who express simultaneously the emotion of one alter in part of their face, and another alter's contradictory emotion in another part of the face.

DID authority Paul F. Dell characterizes passive influence as an intrusion, and states that highly frequent intrusions into executive functioning and sense of self are the experiential core of DID.[1]

[1]Italics in the original. Source: Dissociation and the dissociative disorders: DSM-V and beyond edited by Paul F. Dell and John A. O'Neil, page 227. Link to Google Books preview.