How do you find the time to be away from work, etc?
I'm having an increased difficulty in functioning every day, more flashbacks, I'm fighting with myself to not go back to cutting, the losing time is getting much much worse. I end up falling apart after half the day and then I'm either sleeping all day or up all night crying or it ends up being 5 hours later in the work day and I have no idea what happened during that time, it's just *gone*.
I really need to go to therapy and I'm having trouble finding a specialist who I can afford since almost none of them accept my insurance (my insurance will only cover $25 a visit). I heard theres a very cheap sliding scale place nearby, but I;m really scared they won't be able to help with DID as my last expensive therapist did not.
I just found out there's Del Amo nearby that specializes in treating trauma and DD and I'm wondering if my insurance would cover a stay there or some day programs.
that said, I have no idea if I can afford to go simply because I'm missing work and getting things done. I run my own company so if I'm not here to work, no money gets made - I have a loan from my parents, so If I'm not making more money with my company by the time my loan runs out I'm screwed. (these are the parents that when I told them I thought I had DID and explained it to them- they told me one of my personalities should get a "real" job and stop complaining)
Has anyone been in this position? how do you deal with not making money and still having your life in tact when you get out? I'm terrified of losing my company if I have to go away for a few weeks, but I'm also getting less and less functional without any help.