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Hi this is Lillyane. I am supposed to talk to peple so I came here. I cry a lot and Aneisha thinks its a prolem or some thing but I can't help it! She says its ok to cry but if it is then why is it bad?? I was getting upset cause I don't know what to do. I want to run away all the time I don't know why cause Aneisha told me I was safe but I still get afraid and I don't like eyes looking at me I supposed to make friends becuse Im alway alone I am even scard of the other in side with me too she said they are nice but I don think there is anything to like about me

chibixal wrote:Hi this is Lillyane. I am supposed to talk to peple so I came here. I cry a lot and Aneisha thinks its a prolem or some thing but I can't help it! She says its ok to cry but if it is then why is it bad?? I was getting upset cause I don't know what to do. I want to run away all the time I don't know why cause Aneisha told me I was safe but I still get afraid and I don't like eyes looking at me I supposed to make friends becuse Im alway alone I am even scard of the other in side with me too she said they are nice but I don think there is anything to like about me

It's ok to cry, but sometimes, crying on the outside can make things tough, because people don't understand. It's not bad, she's probably just trying to protect you so you don't get hurt worse because she cares about you.

There is always something to like about you. Even if you don't feel like it. ^ ^
Don't be too afraid of the others. They are there to help you. ^_^ Even if they don't always know how to do that. Not knowing how to help can make people worried sometimes, but don't take it the wrong way, it's because they like you and want to help, not because they don't like you.

Eyes are very scary things. About half of us can't look at eyes either, because they're so scary. We just pretend there are no eyes on us. Even if there are, we just pretend to keep us from worrying so much. So we understand.
It's nice to meet you. ^ ^

Yes it is okay to cry, and I'm glad she told you that. She is probably just worried about you and wants you to feel safe. I can understand... I worry about some inside who are really upset too. Is there anyone inside you feel a little more comfortable with? If there's no one now, maybe it'll come over time. Just remember that everyone there inside has been very hurt, just like you've been. It sounds like there might be some inside who like you and maybe want you to be their friend? I know its probably hard to believe, but you are safe now and Aneisha isn't going to let anything bad happen to you. I think she's just worried about you and really doesn't want you to run away again. I'm really glad you come on here to write and talk about your feelings. It can really help sometimes.

-- Sun Jul 03, 2011 2:41 pm --

Ps I like you alot and I have a feeling there is a lot to like about you!

chibixal wrote:Hi this is Lillyane. I am supposed to talk to peple so I came here. I cry a lot and Aneisha thinks its a prolem or some thing but I can't help it! She says its ok to cry but if it is then why is it bad?? I was getting upset cause I don't know what to do. I want to run away all the time I don't know why cause Aneisha told me I was safe but I still get afraid and I don't like eyes looking at me I supposed to make friends becuse Im alway alone I am even scard of the other in side with me too she said they are nice but I don think there is anything to like about me

Hi Lillyane

It's good to meet you and great that you came here. There seems to be lots of safe people here. Crying's ok. It's a good thing to do. But people usually (not always) cry because they've got a problem so maybe Aneisha's worried about you and what could be wrong?

Wanting to run away is ok, especially if you're scared. It's not a good idea to actually run away though if you're safe where you are as you might end up somewhere scarier. Do you have a safe space inside you can go to when you get scared? Somewhere nice where you have things around you that you like? And here is safe if you want to talk to people.

As Aecy and brandic say, there's something to like about everyone. So I bet there's something to like about you too.

I hope to see you again
Cxx

I don't know what's wrong I didn't think any one wold care what is wrong with me every thing is differt now and I dont understand it and before everyone was mean and hurt me but no one believed me. No one will ever listen to me so I just want to run away forever so people won't look at me like I'm nasty

Lillyane, I think you are starting to see that things are different now. I know it must be very confusing, but at least it's better now than before, wouldn't you say? Before people didn't care and thought badly of you, but now there are more people to help and who do want to hear what you have to say. I know it's scary but you are safe now, you don't have to run away. I know it's very confusing, but there are people who will help you figure it out. You are not alone with all this hard stuff. I know in the past, the people you knew hurt you and didn't want to help, but there are people now who really care and want to help you. It might take a while for you to trust that, and that's okay... If you run away, even though it feels like something you need to do, it doesn't seem very safe, wouldn't you agree? One of mine inside ran away because she was scared but then was even more scared when she was wandering and lost. So please don't run away, okay?

Lillyane, this is Jamie. I'm 12 - very close to your age. I ran away once. It was because I wanted to get lost and never be found. But please don't run away. I don't want you to get hurt cause you could get hurt if you run away.

Hello Lillyane,
It is ok to cry. Sometimes we all need a good cry because it helps. But please don't run away that would be very hard for everyone inside because believe it or not they do care about you. Trust me everyone on here is willing to help you along with everyone inside. You are safe.

-Nicki

brandic wrote:Lillyane, this is Jamie. I'm 12 - very close to your age. I ran away once. It was because I wanted to get lost and never be found. But please don't run away. I don't want you to get hurt cause you could get hurt if you run away.

Hi Jamie I know I'm sick of bein alone an runin away. I wanna make friends and be happy but I don know how hey do you know how? I know some one named Jamie before that's funny

Dos any one know how to find josh? He helped me run a way but now he's gone Aneisha don't even know him. I really miss him and he wold make me feel safe but no one has seen him

Hey Lillyane,

Caroline here. Well the first step in making friends is reaching out, which is what you've already done on here! And we'd like to think that we're your friend, and we're here if you ever need it. The next step in making a friend is getting to know them. You can ask them questions about things, like things they like to do and stuff like that. Then, if they like some of the same things you like, you can do it together! Friends can be great and can help you feel a little less lost and lonely. Is there anyone inside that you think you might want to be friends with?

I'm sorry Lillyane but I don't know josh or where he is... was he your friend? How old is josh, do you know? And where did you meet him? Answering some of these questions could maybe help you and Aneisha figure out who he is and how you can find him.

I like Jay he is nice to me he talked to me threw the door for a while until I trusted him then I came and sat with him but I started to have bad memries and cry so him and aneisha sang to me. It was nice of them
John was a friend he protected me and helped me run a way jay said he knows josh he was here a log time ago with me but now he's hiding or maybe he ran away too? He was 15 when I met him I really jimmy him. Jay said he misses him to.