CONfused! >_>

I don't know if I have DID. I'm not sure at all! I want answers, how am I supposed to get them? With me, as said before, it's not for sure, but I think I have DID, I can't confirm it with a doctor or anyone, because of personal aspects of my life. But with me, I have different people, of different ages, ideas, names, perspectives of life, actions, and thoughts within me. Which I assume is an alter. I've got three so far, and am afraid there is another lurking around, but I'm not sure yet. I speak to them in my mind all the time. Like:

"What should I do now? What am i supposed to say?"
'Let me take over and deal with this.'
"No I want to!"
""Shut up both of you, and let me because you both don't know what you're talking about."
'Fine.'
"Whatever."


and that's just a normal thing for us. We talk to each other all the time, and rarely do I not remember some parts of the day but that's because they took over without permission, usually. I don't have such big memory loss, if any really. It's rare that I do, so that's why I'm so doubtful of having it at all. We all deal with different aspects of our life. One alter would deal with the abusive parents, another the druggie boyfriend, the other friends at school, so on and so forth.

I'm not sure. people have said that I do have it, but still, I don't truly know. =/ Can someone please tell me what I have or what I don't have? because I am CONfused! >_> people with DID should have loads of memory loss right? I don't have that! I just don't know. Simple.

Sorry you are having such a rough time. Unfortunately, the only people who can RX you as having DID are qualified doctors. We are merely a support group and as such can offer suggestions and insight. However, none of us can RX you as DID or any other illness for that matter. You should take a leap of with with your doctor if you are comfortable with them and explain what is happening and how you are feeling. (Jay)

I can understand your confusion and frustration. However none of us on here can tell you if you really have DID. We are not qualified psychiatrists and telling you straight forward that you have DID could potentially be 'dangerous'. There's a lot of people who get misdiagnosed on a daily basis by qualified psychiatrist and we aren't even allowed to do so. I think Una+ posted a test on here a few days ago that measures how dissociative you are. It might be a good idea to take that test. It's not a certainty but it is used by psychiatrists as well so maybe that can clear up a few things for you.

I will give you my opinion. From the little bit that you wrote I get that there is a possibility you might be DID. There are no rules for DID, only symptoms that could confirm the presence of DID in a person. Every person with DID is different. Some Core's and alters black out when another alter is out, some don't. Memory loss therefor is not a given. You do mention that you simply don't know. In my book that's the same as memory loss but I could have understood you wrong. There's a lot of people with DID who can be co - present, co - conscious and co - exist. This would explain the absence of memory loss. Since you all deal with different situations, it could mean that you do have alters. It could also mean that you simply have fragments or have adjusted yourself to dealing with certain situations. It seems that the personalities are pretty far developed so this could mean that they truely are alters and different people. You can always try asking them. There's a lot answers to be found within yourself. So ask you're alters why they are there, what is there job and were they created at some point during a significant event, who created them? Your alters will know the answers to these questions. It is however not a guarantee that they will provide you with the answers.

I hope this helped you a little bit!

Agree with Jay, the only way you can really know is to see a doctor and usually a therapist follows.
Symptoms can sometimes cross over with other disorders, so without seeing a professional, it would be very difficult to determine whether it is definately DID that you have.

Aklira wrote:people with DID should have loads of memory loss right?

Some do, some don't. Some who do have blocks of amnesia don't notice, at least at first.

Onlyme wrote:Una+ posted a test on here a few days ago that measures how dissociative you are.

The link is here: dissociative-identity/topic65082.html

Thank you guys, I took the quiz and got Total score of: 83 I would like to see someone about this, but again, because of personal aspects of my life, I can't. Plus, I'm under the age of eighteen, so I'm afraid that if I do speak with someone about this, like a professional, they would tell my parents, who would not be understanding. What should I do about that?

You should discuss confidentiality and reporting requirements with any therapist you talk to, before you disclose your history. Also, you can give an alias, or only your first name, and pay cash. You do not have to identify your parents or give your address or phone number or any other information that identifies you.

This link may help: http://www.ipt-forensics.com/journal/volume2/j2_4_5.htm

Also, look into emancipation of minors. In some places, you do not need to go to court or anything, you just do it. At 17 I did it; had I known I could do it, I would have done it earlier.

Here's the deal though. I was reported to my school psychologist for being suicidal(true) and I had to take a depression test. I lied, but was somewhat truthful, and got myself into the iffy range where I am not depressed depressed, but not normal either. Psychologist said that if had gotten to the depressed depressed stage, she would have had to talk to my parents. I don't know who to talk to or who to trust! I am too young to find someone! I'm in the middle of a move to top it all off. I just don't know.

When you feel ready to get help, then you will get help.