Please help, I don't know what I am...

I didn't know where else to go.

I've been keeping a secret since I was young when it started. I thought were imaginary friends (IFs) but some of them I could talk to. I'm afraid that one of the voices will talk to me when I'm in public and someone will find out what I am.

Something frightens me. One of the voices named Secret said, "You aren't the real (BluVelvyt). He's the Promise Child and he's asleep, you'll disturb him!"
That confused me. Wasn't I the real (BluVelvyt)?

I asked him when he would 'wake up' and he said, "Never. We can't give him any memories of that thing."

I know what he's talking about. The sexual abuse that began and ended at age seven. It was someone I still know.

I don't necessarily want to get rid of the voices, I like them, but I would like to know and understand the memories I share with them.

They all have names and ages, and some are even ageless. I have some of the voices names on my signature.

Only a doctor can diagnose you. Find a good therapist. If you want to find out if you have DID, go to a therapist who specializes in dissociative disorders.

I want to ask you something, but I'll send it in a PM.

I can't cope with any of this! Bryce is in hiding which means he can kill more Committee members. And now, the Renegade and the Recorder are working the book I'm writing without permission!. I can't control any of this!
I want to learn how to delete a post I made, which was a major f*ck up on my part. I hate me...

Hey Blu Velvyt, you appear to have many conflicting feelings and a lot of questions on your mind. You said you can't cope with what you're going through at the moment, and it truly does sound very stressful. I hope you have someone there to help you if things get too tough for you to figure out alone. All I can say is that I hope things get better for you, and take good care of yourself, that's the most important thing right now. Your well-being is important! And I wish you luck with your therapy and sorting things out too.

I'm not sure if it's possible to delete posts, but if you know how to edit a post you can delete the the message in the edit box by selecting it and clicking delete (or cutting the text away), and then submitting the empty message.

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The voices, or whatever they are, hate being called 'alters'. They say that it sounds so derogatory. Strange enough, they're okay with selves and Committee members, but they LOVE being called Committee members.
They say that I am not the first-born child. They call him the Promise Child, or P.C. for short, and they say that he's dead asleep and will never wake up.
The ones with the full memory of the abuse are Little Me and Seven.
I'll post the "System" Map online here in a couple seconds.

"System" Map as of 2011:
Collaboration by BluVelvyt, Georgic, and Georgie
David- He is 15 years old. He was sane when he appeared and is now insane. Locked in cell.
The Controller- Age unknown, controls who talks to me. Able to talk without depending on my mental state.
Cheyenne- She is 15. Angry. Stays with Parker.
Hilda-She is 15. Angry, aggressive, stays with Cheyenne and Parker.
Mistress-She is 46. Sexual, likes nudity. Stays by herself.
Vaughn- He is 15 and does not age. Likes drawing, and reading.
Frank- He is 15 and does not age. Stays with Vaughn. Likes talking with Alfie.
Alfie- He is 15 and can remove anyone he wants from the "system" house for periods of time.
Mitch- He is 15 and likes to talk to Harry. Keeps him company and stays with him.
Bob, Jeff, Phil, Terry, Jimmy, Billy, Tommy, Kit, Lake, Nicky,& Casey- Known as The Boys. They are 15, almost 16. They like to talk to each other and play.
Cassie- She is 15-16 and does not age. Bubbly, will try to get people to also be cheerful.
Mirage- He is 15 and does not age. Stays with Frank and Mitch. Nearly monotone, barely does anything.
Ampulla- She is 15 and does not age. Stays with Mirage, Frank, and Mitch. Other information unknown.
Parker- He is 13 and does not age. Pure anger and rage. Extremely violent A.K.A. The Big Bad. Only comes out when threat to the body. NO CO CONSCIOUNESS EVER. Cannot pull him back in. Always watching.
Jack- Ages with the body. Large and strong, usually stays by himself. Lives in separate System Room.
Julie-She is 13. Sad, depressed, in pain, wants to stay small like Little Me.
Little Me- He is 7. Happy, was sad and depressed, holds childhood.
Bias-Belie- He is 15. Holds some anger.
Johnny – He is 15. Wants youth to be innocent and pure, so he doesn’t let The Kids age.
Emily- She is 8. Appears to go along with anyone who appears to be in authority.
Harry- He is 18. Wants to go to college.
JJ- She is 15. Tells me what to write in journal, is unhappy, and wild.
Severance-He is 15. Severs any emotion that he feels is dangerous. Stays with Alfie.
Tender- He is 15. Sweet, happy, and carefree.
Ebony- He is 15. Bleeds, wails, and cries.
Bezel- Age unknown. Possibly a demon. Has horns and hair on face and back. Hisses. Doesn’t do much.
October- He is 15. Likes to play with children. Not much is known.
Minus-He is 10. Feels left out, wants to die, and depressed.
Abscissae- He is 15. Nervous, frightened, panicked. Wants to run away.
Missal- He is 15. Angry, furious, stressed, and tired.
Annex Rai- She is 15. Knows Key as well as any other Committee member. Knows Re’al.
Re’al- He is 15. Emotionless and angry.
Fantasy- She is 15. Happy, imaginative, and playful.
Legerdemain- Unknown age. Knows Key very well.
Keith- He is 15. Holds a range of emotions.
Tracy- She is 14. Came to stay in my mother’s presence.
Toy- Age unknown, possibly 6 or 7. Chants about colors.
Da Boy- He is 15. Doesn’t do much. Likes to play with The Kids.
Anastashia- She is 15. Princess, snobby, stays with Lady Catherine.
Lace- She is 15. Wants to be famous, possibly an actress. Other information unknown.
Essence- He is ageless. Self-Helper.
Ivory- He is 15. Helps the Internal Self-Helpers. Stays with Lace.
Thomi- She is 15. Tomboy, angry, aggressive, frustrated.
Stormie- She is 16. Giddy, happy, loves dogs.
Hollyhock- She is 15. Likes to read with JJ and write.
Rabbit- She is 3-5. Likes to be held and read to. Taken care of by The Caretaker.
The Hero- Age unknown. Likes to be helpful, holds some information about It.
Bryce Craine-Age unknown. Likes to torture people and animals. Hates everyone.
Exodus- He is 15. Hateful and angry. Wants to get rid of everyone.
Needi- He is 15. Needy, fragile, stays with China.
Holde, Folde, Tayke, Withe- They are 15. Fragments. Do what their names say. Withe attaches himself to anyone and won’t stop unless told.
Nightlight- He is 3. Stays up for fear of the mother coming to punish him.
Chastise- He is 15. Wants to hit and scratch the body. Angry and stays near Parker.
Away- He is 15. Wants to “go away from [his] painful past”.
Cere- Age unknown, possibly 15. Doesn’t want to be acknowledged.
Sibyl- She is 15. Scared, nervous, and frightened. Stays in a separate System Room.
Anesthesia- She is 15. Makes the body numb enough so we don’t care about living or life.
Georgic & Georgie- They are 15. Provide me with information on the other voices.
The Feral Child- It is unknown. Animalistic, grunts, growls, hisses, and screams.

I'm curious ... do you hear the voices inside of your head or outside of your head ever? (Jay)

Oh sorry then, commitee members!
Do you think they're referring to your core?

Definitely no. There is no core. He died after the abuse. No one knew his name. I know they're just voices, not alters, just Committee members.
Also, is there an easier way of cataloging them all? Like, putting them in some kind of order?