Specialist in Utah?

Does anyone know of ANY psychologists who specialize in DID in Utah? I'll take anyone from Provo, UT all the way north to Salt Lake City, UT. It's not ok in here. It's too dark. It's too ######6 dark and the sceaming won't stop and I don't know what's going on or why the screaming won't stop the ######6 screaming won't ######6 stop is there anyone out there who can help she can't handle this it's too much and it's never been this bad before i have no idea what's going on

Ok I'm sorry. I want to delete that but the panic attack will come back if I do. Basically, things have gotten very VERY dark. The short part of the story is that my alters decided to do a forced integration. The vast majority were behind it and I didn't really care either way. The only problem is, I think I created new ones and I've never - it's been dark and bad and horrible before, but that feels like child's play. Right now, it feels as if evil itself lives in the bottom of my mind. Worst, I don't understand what I sometimes think I see. It's like Silent Hill in here... only real.

Don't worry about me, I'm actually ok. But it's bubbling up. THEY'RE not ok. And I can't see anything and I'm feeling very strongly that I'm not supposed to.

...I don't understand... I know what happened and I'm ok with it... What is this - this memory or whatever can't even technically exist! I'm not kidding! It's literally impossible - it's not me denying that "oh there's just no way that could've happened" - there literally truly is no possible way for this to have happened.

I've never been away from home when I was little...

I'm sorry I just need to talk to a psychologist now. If there's anyone you can find, please tell me. I know I'm distorting these images, but I don't know how to un-distort even with looking at it with the emotions from the time. It's like I was on hallucinagens.

I'm sorry, I've been googling and I've already emailed one guy who MIGHT help with dissociative disorders, but, please if anyone else can help, I would greatly appreciate it. I just don't get what's going on - one minute I feel everything, the next it's as if nothing happened.

Also does anyone know where I can get mental health care coverage? If mental insurance exists, I'm sure I'll qualify as they haven't caught me yet

To find a therapist, a good place to start is ISST-D. They have a directory of member therapists: http://www.isst-d.org/find-a-therapist/ ... rapist.htm

My therapist is trained in Internal Family Systems, for which there also is a directory: http://www.selfleadership.org/find-an-i ... apist.html

You can also get leads by calling community mental health programs in your area. Ask for names of therapists who specialize in treating trauma and dissociation, and for peer support groups for people with dissociation disorders in general.

Many health insurance programs do cover mental health. And some free public clinics also provide therapy services. If you have to resort to self-pay, many therapists have sliding scale fees. My therapist's scale is $50 to $150 per session.

Thanks I'll check them all out and see what I can dig up

I know this an old post but did you ever find someone in utah? My wife is DID and really spinning right now and I need some help.

The ISSTD database lists 10 members in Utah. Most are in Salt Lake City, but there are others in Murray, Payson, Draper. Even if none of them would work for you, they are worth contacting to ask for names of other therapists. Also they have access to training resources.