Is there anyone here like me?

I'm pretty sure I have DID. Interestingly enough I am in love with a girl who has the same disorder and I don't know how to confront her about it. -_- I just remind her of "my little friend" occasionally.

To start this out, I have had DID since about the age of 11. This other Identity I could visualize outside of myself; see, hear, and touch as though another person. I know her better than any other person. I was wondering if there were anyone here that also had the same experience as myself.

3 Years ago, I sort of just started ignoring her, and locked my her into a "mental cage" that consists of a large willow tree and a blanket on the ground. I've haven't spoken to her since then, but I know shes still there.

Hey,
I know how you feel, kind of. I can see all of my alters, and I can touch Lilly and Kendra. I always felt like I was the only one who could, so it's good to know I'm not THAT nuts.
As for locking them away. i have tried that, but things sort of work weirdly around here. Everything in based on who has the most Power. When I say power, I mean who has more mental stability or control. Normally, that would be me, Kimberly, or Kendra.
Anyway, back on topic. I've tried to lock them away, but usually Kendra simply "breaks" out, so locking them away doesn't really work for me.
But, yeah, I know where you're coming from.

Welcome, Saphy!

Well, when you remind her about your "little friend", what kind of things do you say? If you've been talking about her like another person, maybe the girl you're in love with won't be surprised when you bring up DID?

Saphy wrote:This other Identity I could visualize outside of myself; see, hear, and touch as though another person. I know her better than any other person. I was wondering if there were anyone here that also had the same experience as myself.

While that sounds closer to a hallucination, there is someone else on this board who can see alters in the outside world (hey, she just posted, as I was finishing this up ). So, who knows? Besides having the girl that you talked to, what else is making you consider DID?

Saphy wrote:3 Years ago, I sort of just started ignoring her, and locked my her into a "mental cage" that consists of a large willow tree and a blanket on the ground.

Why did you do that?

@LunaSyko

^__^ Oh cool, so I'm not alone on that one.
You are dealing with 8 though, as I only 1. Maybe that was why it was easier for me. Also, she did it half-voluntarily as well.

@canolime

Well, this girl I like has HIGHLY DEVELOPED DID... I think with multiple primaries (Nacron, Ulrich, Lance, Momo) like Luna has, and nearly 54 others. So the idea of DID is not new to her, just, her doesn't grasp that I've told her about mine many times. She jealous of her slightly. I talk about the alter as if another person, she does the same.

I have no doubt is a well fabricated complex hallucination, but was vivid enough to visualize her all day of everyday at any time. Even to the point where if she bumped into me accidentally I felt it. Other found it awkward that I would react at random. I didn't bother trying to explain it to them. Her personality is existentially independent from my own. I have no idea what other personality disorder to go into that great detail or effect. I mean I saw her night and day for 6 years, in class, helping me study/do homework, sitting down to eat, (Never feed her, she always has her own food) laying down with me when I slept. Though, we never had like a sexual relationship or anything. >__< That would have been awkward, though see did talk about it once. She liked to cuddle =P

As for the final question, I simply wanted to be normal. -_- I miss her terribly... She didn't harm anyone or myself.

Just a suggestion. Maybe, if you miss her so much, why not try to bring her back. I'm sure having her had the disadvantages, but there's always the good parts. I can understand the need to be 'normal' though.