Hello everyone! Sorry for such a delay. I've never been a part of a forum and wasn't sure how to go about this, so I rushed in without introducing myself or anyone for that matter. I wish not to name myself because it is a very distinct name that can pin-point my identity simply by typing it in and typing in Florida. With that being said, I am the host of this body. I don't have much memory of anything before high school. It's all rather limited. I have many others within me, who I dislike calling "alters" because it makes them sound less - to me, at least. I struggled with the idea of having DID for years, and I'm only 19. I kept telling all my counselors that they didn't exist, that they were just a part of my imagination. Of course this severly insulted the majority of everyone within. I'm a psychology major/forensic science minor. I'm huge on grammar. I don't know how to signify the changes from one person to the next, but if my grammar becomes unbelievably poor then you may use that as a sure sign that I am losing or have lost control. Sometimes some of them can't come out, so I type for them the way that they might type. It kills me because I have such strange issues with bad grammar, but it's how they are and I'd rather not change it. None of the others are ever in full control. I just don't trust them to do right by us. I realize they're here for that specific purpose, but it's not something I can allow. There will be times though when I do release most of my control (or they take it), and I just sit back and watch as they entertain themselves. But once the situation changes, I immediately take the reins. I have split everyone up into categories so I may better keep track of them. I'll provide you with one category now. I've come to the realization that I'm tired, so I'll write down the others for you soon.
They're in order from most powerful to the least:
Protectors? - We'll just call him Protector for now. He's the head protector.
Sam (18) - She's bitter and rude. She also dulls or buffers our feelings if they become too intense.
Sarah (23) - She loves to party. She's the most outgoing out of all of us, but we hardly ever see her. She's just so opposite of my personality, that it would be way too obvious. But, if we find ourselves in a social situation and completely lost, she will step up.
Hensei (17) - He's a fun loving guy and really sweet. He has a short temper, as does this whole group.
Raku (8) - He mostly protects Riisa, although he does come out when he loses his temper because someone has threatened us. He's extremely kind and sensitive, which is a weird mix for a protector.
60 (60) - He just watches over Ruain. That's a 24/7 job in itself, really. Even so, he finds time to counsel the rest of us if we desperately need his wisdom and aren't due for another appointment with Patrick for a week or so.
"A question that sometimes drives me hazy: am I or the others crazy?" ~ Albert Einstein
Kiira, Kerra, Riisa, Hensei, Raku, Sam, Sarah, Ruain, Anne, Shianne, Aeia, 60, Protector, Paranoid, Chill
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