In Need of a Protector Alter! One may be coming out...

At this point I am only aware of two alters. One primary/dominant one female whom I've named Jessica since she wont supply her own name and a secondary male alter whom she at one point named Richard (after a few others Richard has just kinda stuck especially with me). However, they are both what I call "Betrayer" alters that overlap with Dark Alters and Persecutor Alters. Jessica expresses some of the qualities of a Rational Alter and seems to be managing the system of the alters themselves though neither of them have spent anytime as host (nor do I want them to due to their cruelty, abusiveness and continual and consistent betrayals).

Now I'm still new to all this but I believe I may have been experiencing the emergence of a protector alter in response to the trauma and stress being caused by Jessica. Richard and I also sometimes share a sexual relationship (still weird but I think it has something to do with how I compromised myself sexually in my addiction and how the drugs made sex so intense - right now I'm thinking he represents both a counterpoint to my guilt and shame for using as well as having that intense sexual effect on me I had when using; because when I was still using he would then show up angry and yelling about it badgering and attacking me for even thinking about it. And oh yes the emotional manipulator Jessica would be there joining in the chorus of hate and attack. These self recriminating thoughts and feelings were things I at one point dissociated and it appears they are now playing out the role of self attack that I had abandon near the end of my active addiction.

Anyway, I may have started to dissociate the possibly newly emerging protector alter who would counter the Betrayer alters with a positive counterpoint to their hurtful words. In was in voice kinda similar to my own but definitely not originating from any conscious prompting.

My question is is there a way I can call forth or help develop this protector alter? I've already starting calling him Grunt and been calling out to him and thanking him for what he has done so for but at this point he has yet to communicate back to me. I really need his help dealing with Jessica badly, any advice on how to draw him out? I don't relish the idea of yet ANOTHER voice in my head other than my own and the Betrayers but since it plainly obvious I've got some form of DD NOS with alters inside I could really use the help of a protector alter because frankly I'm sick of dealing with Jessica on my own, it's draining and takes up a lot of my minds time and energy coping with her madness.

Hello

Don't know how much I can help, but I'm Heather, and I'm the carer in our system. I'm a direct counterpoint to Jen, which probably is why she hates me!!

We're working in therapy on when I emerged, but Emily (the host) only became fully aware of me recently, and I've only started ever taking front over the last couple of weeks. It's become better through a) therapy and b) Emily accepting me as what I am. I'd also advise talking to Jessica and Richard and explain that the protector isn't there to hurt or damage, but to help, or they could obstruct - Jen has obstructed my emergence at every turn, knew about me long before Emily did.

Hope that's of some help. Also maybe try some notes and just coaxing, if yours is a strong system with outward characters, he/she may well be quite scared. Good luck!! Hope that helps.

Heather