Introduction

canolime wrote:Maybe they don't really understand that you're safe, now. It might seem obvious, but sometimes alters don't realize they're not in the same situation as they were when you were little. Try showing them you're not in the same place, and really explain why you're no longer in danger, and why those rules shouldn't apply anymore.

Yep that is what I am trying to do. The little ones seem to understand better then the adults and teens but there getting yelled at for being hopeful I got a couple spewing some pretty bad stuff and the "shhhhhhhhhhhh" alt is constant but that's ok. I am not gonna try to push them away but the I am not sure how to deal with 1 adult who is destructive she makes it hard for me to take medicine I need to live for chronic medical conditions. It confuses me cause I thought alts protect but she is a very angry one. I have to admit when she comes out is only under the worst of very extreme danger so I can almost understand her destructiveness. Just trying to talk her down. Cause I am not giving up this time I have way to much to lose.

Be loved

lolointerupted wrote:The little ones seem to understand better then the adults and teens but there getting yelled at for being hopeful

lolointerupted wrote:I am not gonna try to push them away but the I am not sure how to deal with 1 adult who is destructive she makes it hard for me to take medicine I need to live for chronic medical conditions. It confuses me cause I thought alts protect but she is a very angry one.

They are supposed to protect, but alters can be created for so many different purposes, and each have different ways of seeing things, so sometimes they are the opposite of helpful. Why doesn't she want you to take the medicine? Does she maybe think it's bad for you, in some way? Or is she trying to harm you guys? If she's destructive, maybe it's some kind of self-punishment, or she doesn't want to live or something...

Not giving up is good

canolime wrote:

Yep they don't see me as doing good by trying to be open about it. They think the little ones are at risk.

canolime wrote:They are supposed to protect, but alters can be created for so many different purposes, and each have different ways of seeing things, so sometimes they are the opposite of helpful. Why doesn't she want you to take the medicine? Does she maybe think it's bad for you, in some way? Or is she trying to harm you guys? If she's destructive, maybe it's some kind of self-punishment, or she doesn't want to live or something...

Self punishment is the rule for me its really bad but I remain. I have more then one adult alt who expects perfection and when I am not cause I can not be the judgement comes down like rain.
I have just as strong adult alts who fight for me! Sounds insane be they are my mustard seed if you will my small hope I hold on to like its the air I breath. They are just confused right now about what is happening me interacting with them so the protective ones are a bit off right now and it has let the more angry self punishing ones run amok. Yes 1 thinks everything is bad for me, meds, food, water etc etc etc. Can't say she is the most logical She is a bit paranoid, anorexic and ocd.... Yay for me!

The first thing I am working on with my T is the self punishment cause it blocks everything.

Thank you

Hi

You were wondering how we felt when we realised that the alts were real.

I felt as shocked, shaken and scared as I would be if someone rose up out of the ground before me. It defied belief. It engulfed me. In one foul swoop it tore away all that I had constructed and believed about myself and left me embarassed, humiliated, confused, fearful and lost. Devastated would seem to be the word to describe it best.

But Hey!!!....it gets better

Wishing you luck and good fortune on your journey to you.

merri et al wrote:Hi

You were wondering how we felt when we realised that the alts were real.

I felt as shocked, shaken and scared as I would be if someone rose up out of the ground before me. It defied belief. It engulfed me. In one foul swoop it tore away all that I had constructed and believed about myself and left me embarassed, humiliated, confused, fearful and lost. Devastated would seem to be the word to describe it best.

But Hey!!!....it gets better

Wishing you luck and good fortune on your journey to you.

Thank you and let me clarify a little bit. My intro was typed by about 4 of us and purposefully only clear if you don't have my perspective. I have had my alts for so long but T defining it and making it real outside of me threw me alot like you described so perfectly. I am still in that place except I had a alt who helped me a great deal chill out. I just can't be so open cause it is to much for most except a couple so I am attempting to be very general here so i don't get bumped!

My self punishing peeps are working very hard and my guardians are right back at them and thats all I can say about that war for now. But of course doing anything good for my body is a fight if I can do it faster then the angry alts can stop me. Right now I am good cause April (8) has been hanging out with me for days and she is full of life, love, laughs etc. She has helped me through some really difficult days with endless hope so I am staying right here with her, following the rules to calm everyone down. But it still creeps in and freaks me out I am even talking about it at times.

The sunrise came and we as well as you are here. Thats all I need for now