New and confused - Hi!

Hi I'm new here and a little nervous about talking about myself. I learned quite a few years ago I have DID, I've been in and out of therapy for years now. My therapist that finally told me what was going on with me had some health issues so I told her to take care of herself. She is now slowly retiring so she got me with a new therapist. I was reading everyone's stories and I really can identify we everyone. It's really hard to talk to family or friends about your feelings and how scared you are because you don't know what you're alters have done, you get told you did something you have no memory of. For me it's crazy to many feelings when you find out you did something you have no memory of. My stepmother will ask me which one she is talking to and she says I always say me lol what answer do people expect. I told my therapist I really need to talk to people who are like me to help me understand how to better understand and deal with my alters. I do remember bits and pieces of what happened to me, but in the past few years I have been remembering things I don't want to remember but my therapist I think I should remember. To be honest it scares me to remember I've noticed when I go to therapy I get a bad headache feeling like one of the worst migraines, but when I leave my head starts to ease up and go away. Does anyone else have that problem? I also have problems talking about myself I don't know why. Really would be nice to talk to people who understand. Sorry for this being so long thanks for taking the time to read this.