Hello I'm new here ^^

Hello! I'm Alex. I'm 15 yo girl and I have just registered after lurking here for a few days. I'm almost sure that I have DID, although I am not diagnosed yet.
The reason why I think I have it is because I sometiems feel it's as if something/someone takes over me and I can hear her/him/it, whatever it is. My voice changes, mannerisms are different, (I speak and act like I am from England) and I sometimes start to talk about myself in third-person. A few days ago, actually last week, after I cried almost an hour and I was sitting in my bed, I felt like I was frozen and didn't move my body, also I was breathing through my mouth. And after a few minutes, I start acting completely different, as I said above and I didn't feel that it was me. It was as if I were a eleven year old. The only thing that doesn't make sense to me is the fact that now,I feel like this almost all the time. I still get glimpses of what she does when I'm not in control. She came up with her own name; Tasi. Also, I don't have memory loss... I heard this is called co-conciousness, or something like that.
I've been emotionally hurt by a family member many times throughout my life, to the point of where I get somewhat scared whenever this person comes over. Also I lost my dad a few months ago and I felt guilty as always because I could do nothing to help him and because I knew this was going to happen. Could this be a reason as to why I have an alter? When I was little, I was rejected by all the children and also was bullied in elementary and middle school. I mean that nobody ever wanted to play or talk to me and other bad stuff that I don't want to remember.
Anyways, I've never really made an introduction like this on a forum.
Alex

Welcome Alex! Well it definitely sounds like some signs of DID, but as you may have already read, we're not professionals so we can't diagnose you. Have you tried talking to your other sides?

Everything you said in the second paragraph can easily be related to why you may have split. Also, in case you needed the reminder, your dad was not your fault. No, there really wasn't anything you could have done. I'm sorry, sweety, but that's just how life is sometimes. It sucks, but you can't just take all the responsibility for things you can't control.

I was rejected by everyone when I was little too.

We're not professionals, but you don't technically need a diagnosis to get started
on the path to wellness

Just remember to treat yourself with kindness and normalize your situation.
Try to get to know your parts and help them heal as well, and facilitate communication.

And, Hello!

i got rid of my adoptive dad about a week ago thank god because he would always hit us its a reason (one of them) why we split and i was actually shunned lyk that when i was in elementary school too so i know how it feels and it SUCKS haha but your here now and i bet you have friends

it sounds lyk did to me and im 14 so were close in age pm me anytime you want if you need personal help or anything im here your other parts are just lyk other people and you want to treat them that way so they feel comfortable talking to you you are special and different in a very good way we all split to become stronger people in situations where others that couldnt/didnt split wouldnt have been as strong

theres a reason for everything and WELCOME!!!
Victoria

hahaha again sorry about that whenever i come over her house i accedentally stayed signed in on her account (my mom dosent like me getting into this kind of stuff its annoying but i use Victorias computer for this) she thought she was signed in for her this is probably going to happen quite frequantly sorry!!

but welcome i dont have DID but Victoria (my gf) does and im trying to figure out as much as i can about this so i can help you guys and her

again sorry she used my account it was my fault for not logging off

Chris

Thank you very much for your welcome.

Mr. Bates wrote:Have you tried talking to your other sides?

Well, yes, I've tried and I discovered there is one more. So, I guess we're 3 right now.
Me, Tasi and Claire.
Claire is 17 yo, she's kind of a protector and I really like her. She is always helping us, especially Tasi. She has frequently panic attacks and wants to SI, but we don't let her. I don't know. Claire likes classic piano music and she is calm, but when she wants to do something, she will sure do it. They can both express themselves whenever they want to. I mean, if they are out and they want to say something which I am normally afraid to say, they will say; and this is a good thing.
BTW, I was diagnosed with panic attacks, so I/she/we don't fake it, or something.

Welcome! (sorry I'm late with that)

TooCloseToTheEdge wrote:BTW, I was diagnosed with panic attacks, so I/she/we don't fake it, or something.

I doubt anyone here would question whether the panic attacks are real or not

TooCloseToTheEdge wrote:Also, I don't have memory loss... I heard this is called co-conciousness, or something like that.

Yeah. With co-consciousness, you know what's going on, but someone else is controlling the body And you can talk to each other

Arrrggghhhh! This is the 5th time I'm typing cuz I keep accidentally deleting it

Welcome!!

We can't diagnose you obviously, but as the others said does sound like DID.

My system is generally co-conscious. The fact you are is a good thing! Many systems have to spend a while in therapy to get to that point.

I get panic attacks as does J. Its a pain in the ass isn't it. Good that you have a diagnosis tho

Hope you find the forums useful, we're always on here so if you ever have a question etc, then feel free to give us a shout (well, a PM)

-Mara & Ker