I haven't met them properly...

mosiacmonkey wrote:I think once you get to the point where you realize how much they've done for you, it really helps. It did for me anyway. Have you tried writing in a notebook & leaving it for them? That's how Kerry & I first started talking. It does help. It's weird waking up to notes, but it starts the communication off

I read about the notebook idea on another thread so I walked to the store today to buy one. One of the younger ones picked one out (though I really couldn't let her choose the expensive notebook she wanted) and she chose some coloured pencils too. She really likes brightly coloured things... Then when we walked back to the house and she drew in there. It just looks like squiggles and things to me when I saw it later... Oddly I felt good about seeing the drawing. This might sound weird, but before acknowledging to myself that they are with me, I could never look at any drawings or writing that "I" had done. "I" used to write in a journal and I have never been able to read it back. I don't know what was going on with that exactly. Maybe I didn't want to see it because I didn't want to acknowlegde that they are there or something. Even on this website, I avoided the D.I.D. section of the forum like it was diseased or something. I'm not sure why. Nothing felt comfortable about it. Maybe it made me question my sense of self or something?

Now that I have accepted it I feel much more comfortable and I can tell that they are starting to feel much more comfortable too. And it is sooo nice to be able to come here and talk to people that are similar. I/we have a sense of belonging and honesty and connection with other people for the first time ever.

What did you say to start off the notebook thing? Should I write something to the younger one in response to her drawing? I don't know how old she is exactly, what if she can't read?

Arrrgh... Sorry, so many questions!

We like it here for the same reasons. Its nice to be around others - makes us feel slightly normal

As for the notebook thing I think I'd draw a smiley face & write that's nice or something simple. That way even if they can't read they can see the smiley.

I'd then write another note for anyone else. My first note to Kerry was "Hi, I'm Mara, seems that we're room mates" and it kinda went from there.

One of the others drew a smiley face next to the picture

I haven't had a chance to write in the book yet. I haven't been around it yet when they aren't taking over...

I'm a bit scared to do the thing in therapy that the therapist wants to do to talk to them. I think I will be freaked out. It is kind of disconcerting when they take over. Sometimes I feel like I'm making it up. I wish I was but I know I'm not. I think I'd partly like to think that I am making them up. Has anyone else ever felt the same before being properly diagnosed?