Is it weird that I want...

my alters to take control, more often? I'm not saying I want constant battling over control - just once in a while, when we're alone/it's safe for them to be out.

I promised one of my alters (J) that I would believe that they exist, and I do. It's just that on some level, I feel nuts for thinking I'm multiple if no one takes over. I had to lock up my most actively taking-over alter (J), because I was scared she'd hurt my dog, so that sucks... Now, no one has taken over, since. I can't get anyone to write anything down, or post, or take over for more than cussing someone out (again, J, who can't take over right now). I have like the least active alters here, so I feel like I don't even belong here... *sigh* I constantly hear them talking, and we talk constantly, but I still feel weird.

I know they're not like circus performers or anything, and I'm trying not to treat them like it, but I have a real need for people to believe me, and me having alters doesn't sound very believable

I don't mean to upset/offend anyone who has constant switches, and wants less, so I'm sorry if it has.

My alters dont "take over" usually, and haven't since I was a preteen. It was very hard to figure out what was going on with me based on that fact. I sometimes wish they would take over, until I remember the terror I felt "coming to" in a place I didn't recognize. That usually gets rid of my desire pretty quickly!

They might be afraid that if they come out, you'll lock them all up like J. You might just need to explain why J is locked up and that you won't lock anyone else up as long as they are not a danger to your body or others.

As far as being active out front, usually most of us are not. I'm out here now because yesterday was hell on earth for Mikaela. But 90% of the time, she's the one out here. We all still communicate and usually one or two of us is kind of in the backseat with her in the front, but there usually is one or two people who are the most active. Not unusual at all.

-Pagan

kjlangseth wrote:My alters dont "take over" usually, and haven't since I was a preteen. It was very hard to figure out what was going on with me based on that fact. I sometimes wish they would take over, until I remember the terror I felt "coming to" in a place I didn't recognize. That usually gets rid of my desire pretty quickly!

Really? Yeah, I would imagine that would make it a lot more difficult to figure out. I'm co-conscious with a lot of my alters. I only specifically remember "coming to" once... of course it might have happened before and I just tried to forget it, since the whole voices and weird stuff happening used to freak me out I think as long as I were to come to in a safe place, and I'm not like strangling someone ( ), I'll be okay enough. I don't want to lose too much time, though

TwilightInsight wrote:They might be afraid that if they come out, you'll lock them all up like J. You might just need to explain why J is locked up and that you won't lock anyone else up as long as they are not a danger to your body or others.

As far as being active out front, usually most of us are not. I'm out here now because yesterday was hell on earth for Mikaela. But 90% of the time, she's the one out here. We all still communicate and usually one or two of us is kind of in the backseat with her in the front, but there usually is one or two people who are the most active. Not unusual at all.

-Pagan

Wow I didn't even think of explaining to them why J was locked up. I explained it to J, but not the others. Thanks for telling me

Okay, I guess it's not weird, then. When J was able to come out, I was in control maybe 95%, and now it's been 100%... well... except for whoever might be out while I'm sleeping

TwilightInsight wrote:I'm out here now because yesterday was hell on earth for Mikaela.

Thank you so much, kjlangseth and Pagan