Hello... again!

I’m finding being out really hard at the moment. I feel so scared by everything & everything just seems like such an effort. I’ve lost a massive portion of my memory (about 10mths) not sure why. Not even sure what happened to lead me to this place.

The real world is so scary, but I don’t want to live my life in my head.

I feel so down & lost & terrified. I know I'm just paranoid, but it’s so scary that everyone seems to stare, I’m not coping very well at all. Plus, I seem to have lost the ability to talk.

-Mara

Hello Mara
I'm sorry to hear about the problems you've been experiencing. I understand what its like to be afraid to go out, and what an effort it can be sometimes. I spent nearly a full year in University hiding in the toilets, for example!
Its great that you've made the decision to ask for help here, and hopefully some of the people on here will be able to provide some good advice. For me, I would say that you should let someone know about your problems if you haven't done so already - family, old friends, or maybe consider seeing a counsellor. You should definitely speak to someone close to you if you're having memory loss, even on the phone or by email if you're struggling to get outside for now.
Don't give up hope. Your life can change for the better if you work at it.
Alan

I'm sorry to hear you've been having such a hard time Mara, but I think if you hold on and stick with it, you can pull through this. We're here for you if you need us.