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Mapping my system

Postby neveralone » Sun May 09, 2010 10:34 am

I've been trying to understand my system and all my alters and I decided to make a map of all the others and try and find them all. I started with a chronological list trying to write them down as they appeared but I can't remember the time line of a lot of them so I tried an explosion chart, listing who was related to who but not all of them are related. Another brick wall.
I then decided to go room to room in my 'house' and locate them all but then realised that they don't all live together.

Is there an easy way of mapping them all? There are too many of them and I'm pulling my hair out trying to get them into some sort of order. :?
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Re: Mapping my system

Postby broken_mirror » Sun May 09, 2010 12:03 pm

Mapping can be really hard. I still don't have a full map of my system.
My personal system is very large and very few are related to each other.

I write down their name (or the name I call them by, my boyfriend suggests I try to give
them more positive names than the ones I had for them) and whatever role they play.
Then, I try to write down what they seem to be holding or their hidden purpose
(What they're actually protecting).

My alters don't have a house they live in so they can be hard to find.

I list my own parts using the IFS system-
Managers
Firefighters
Exiles
Here's a quick explanation of the system and how it breaks down.
http://www.selfledsolutions.com/resources/aboutifs.html
This is a system used for everyone, even those without DID.

With DID, it gets a little more complicated because each of us has our own managers, firefighters and exiles.
Not to mention, we can change roles since we're working together as a family system.
So we have our own subcategories.

I then put a little slash in the middle of the page to show the 'parts' that are dissociated from me,
or are simply not mine.
There I list all my kids and adults that have developed their own way with DID.
I've only listed their names and roles under the IFS systems,
but not only do they work as a system in my body, they have their own subsystems for themselves
since they developed differently than me and are separate,
so it can get pretty confusing in here!

If this makes a little more sense,
I have my own managers, firefighters, and exiles,
F has his own managers, firefighters and exiles
S has her own managers, firefighters and exiles.
These are our subsystems.
But in my body, F plays the role of a manager, and S plays the role of a firefighter. This is our body's system.
It's a lot more complicated than that though, I have at least 20-30+ kids in here.. it gets crowded sometimes!
Thankfully, only three of us can be awake at a time. Usually, the same threes come out, that's how I determine
if they are related. Everyone's system is different. Like mine doesn't have a house!

It's a little complicated, but it can sure help you understand your system better and how everything works together!
Plus, it'll help you understand why everyone does the things they do and the best part is roles aren't unshakable-
F used to be a firefighter and S has been playing the role of a manager more often, there used to be a lot more
chaos in here before most of us started playing roles that helped instead of hindered.

However, like I said, everyone's system is different, so this type of map may not work for you.
Use what seems to fit with yours!

Good luck and I hope you get a good map of your system, it can really be handy in your recovery and helping everyone
work together :)
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Re: Mapping my system

Postby neveralone » Sun May 09, 2010 12:35 pm

Thanks broken mirror, I've never stopped to analyse what roles my alters play. From the maps I've done already that I can't get into order I've counted over 60 alters and about half of them are kids.

I guess I have a lot more work to do :)
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Re: Mapping my system

Postby Mr. Bates » Sun May 09, 2010 8:59 pm

Write em down as you go, doesn't always have to be a particular order. You need a complete name list BEFORE you can organize! Don't walk around "Wait... did you come before you... or did YOU come before YOU! gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!" like a doofus :P

Just "Name please", get a list, then go nuts on figuring out when they first appeared or whatever.
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Re: Mapping my system

Postby neveralone » Mon May 10, 2010 6:25 am

Okay so I've got 70+ names together and James was helping me sort them out but then David starts laughing at us from his cell saying that we've only found half on them. I think he's messing with me but then again, he was the first split and if anyone knows about them all it's him. Hmm...
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Re: Mapping my system

Postby Mr. Bates » Mon May 10, 2010 6:46 am

Bah, tell David be happy he's even allowed to talk. I have an alter locked so deep in my mind, only D knows where he is.
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Re: Mapping my system

Postby neveralone » Mon May 10, 2010 12:08 pm

David's been talking entirely too much lately. It's hard to sleep with him yapping all the time. Sometimes I want to let him out just so he'll shut up.
I have a massive migraine right now. Been here the last few days but got really bad today. I reckon his has something to do with me making my map, not all of them want to be found. It better bugger off soon, I have to go to school in the morning. :(
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Re: Mapping my system

Postby Mr. Bates » Mon May 10, 2010 6:51 pm

Tell David to knock it off or you'll push his cage somewhere further out of sight, where NOBODY can hear his crap.
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Re: Mapping my system

Postby neveralone » Wed May 12, 2010 6:51 am

David knows me too well, he'd see right through an empty threat like that. Thanks to his incessant rambling I got about 2 hours sleep last night. Migrane won't go away.
Mingranes are no fun on their own. Migraine and school is worse. Migrane and your lecturer telling you that you have to do an oral presentation. Ahhhhhhhh!
I ended up writing the bloody thing and getting James to do the oral. The perks of DID that I never knew about. LOL.
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Re: Mapping my system

Postby Mr. Bates » Wed May 12, 2010 7:03 am

Maybe it shouldn't be an empty threat. Maybe you should sincerely consider doing that.

Or make baby crying noises at him every time he yells something and keep doing it until he finally shuts up. He might go a while, but nobody holds forever against BABY CRYING NOISES! :mrgreen:

"WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! DAVEY WANT OUT! WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! BOO BOO BOO! WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!"

No seriously, you really might want to consider pushing him down into the basement and soundproofing that bitch.
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