Keep waking up disoriented

Hey, i woke up probably a few hours ago... I can't remember when...
I feel like I'm dreaming and i keep feeling like there's 2 people inside of me... I feel like I'm watching half the things I do...
I feel like half most of the time I am in control and then I feel like something else is making me do stuff but not really... its hard to explain i guess i feel like i'm always in control i just don't feel like I'm the one doing the movements....
what is this? is this dissassociative or depersonalization?
I've gotta say i like this feeling.... feeling like I am someone else takes all the pain and worries away... it almost feels like I'm high right now...
anyway please tell me what this is, since I like it when i get peoples input which is weird because i like people on the internet but hate them in real life... oh ya, another thing is I can't tell if sound is distorted or not... I'm listening to Marilyn Manson like I always am (I did this in a previous post also, but i am almost always listening to it so ya... i don't know where i'm going with this and sorry if i'm boring you but i feel like getting to let people get to know me)
but anyway it seems like sounds have more meaning to me somehow... almost like how when SWIM gets high everything is all cool sounding/looking
anyway enough with my miniature rants about music and other boring $#%^... what is this that i feel?
thanks

oh ya its kinda hard to have balance too, almost like I'm drunk and I think i remember hitting a wall earlier

I'd like to move this post to depersonalization disorder as it is most likely not depersonalization...
also, I've started listening to Rammstein and sometimes i feel like the music is taking over my body and soul and i get shivers all over my body mainly in the chest area... this has happened several times in the past few minutes
and now all of a sudden its like the sound of the music is really sharp to my ears... like a loud sharp noise, but sharp in a beautiful sense... almost like life is so much better I can enjoy music more...
and no I'm not high right now although that would be kind of fun lol

I just noticed I am a Existentialist...
kinda cool...
go like research it if u want its interesting

Depersonalization is a form of dissociation, as is DID, some forms of amnesia, and fugue states. DID is just the most severe form of it, where each state is distinct, enduring, and functions relatively independently.

What you describe sounds kind of like depersonalization, but dissociation is a spectrum, with more variations than anyone could count.

Do you have sensory issues? That could be the case. There's a condition called sensory integration dysfunction/disorder, which can cause milder dissociative symptoms.

Grey Kameleon wrote:Depersonalization is a form of dissociation, as is DID, some forms of amnesia, and fugue states. DID is just the most severe form of it, where each state is distinct, enduring, and functions relatively independently.

What you describe sounds kind of like depersonalization, but dissociation is a spectrum, with more variations than anyone could count.

Do you have sensory issues? That could be the case. There's a condition called sensory integration dysfunction/disorder, which can cause milder dissociative symptoms.

thanks for the response, no I don't have any form a sensory issue(s)

earlier i think i like saw and heard the spirit of someone else and its probably just in my head but i saw this kid about my age (16) and he was standing outside my room door menacingly tapping his foot and then all of a sudden it was gone...
and it was like out of a movie, like I was a camera panning around this kid and it was all in 3'rd person and i was seeing it as I was laying in my bed on my laptop just like I am right now

Nick11657 wrote:earlier i think i like saw and heard the spirit of someone else and its probably just in my head but i saw this kid about my age (16) and he was standing outside my room door menacingly tapping his foot and then all of a sudden it was gone...
and it was like out of a movie, like I was a camera panning around this kid and it was all in 3'rd person and i was seeing it as I was laying in my bed on my laptop just like I am right now

wow i remember a really weird dream i had, but all i remember is i was in a car in this weird area and it looked like arizona
and then i don't remember i think i may have like fallen down the hill or something
oh ya I also noticed that like when i feel different like maybe a different personality I am much happier and more emotional
i think that like those physical feelings i had were just ripples of emotion if u get what i mean...
i feel them again while i listen to Marilyn Manson-Dissassociative
but the weird part is I only feel them in this one like personality.... and I keep seeing little flashes of things... like just now I saw like a dialog box that you would see on the computer pop up in front of me and then go away...
and while i type this it feels like i'm not really here