Does anyone else have a paranoid part of themselves?

Another question folks, am sorry for being so needy but at wits ends with things at the mo. My new neighbour whilst outwardly friendly scares the bejeebers out of me . Today , i redressed a widening boundary, which was causing me some concern. Tonight i heard him laughing with a friend about something i mentioned a day or so ago when he asked me about noise. Basically having a laugh at my expense, even though he introduced the topic.

Now am frightened of recriminations from him, that he is setting out to hurt me and doggy. Tonight spent an hour talking to the helpline but feel scared and anxious about going to sleep. I know he has done something and can nt stop trying to guess what it is. These are some of the worst nights i chalk up and so far am wondering if he remains here for too long if i wont buckle under the pressure of my feelings.

Tonight feeling suicidal and alone with my fears. No one believes me and that scares me even more. Now i have to face trying to talk to him tomorrow about the things which may have brought this about, whilst desparately hoping whatever he has done can be reversed.

I am so afraid and alone, how can this be.

hugs to all

jorjas gang

It seems that he is manipulating you in order for your environment to be filled with chaos and disorder. Also, he wants to try to poison your mind by making you fill it with these doubts.
Perhaps you can approach it a different way, think of the worst thing that has happened to you that you have survived, relate it to him, and tell yourself that you survived, this guy can do nothing to you that you can't conquer. Believe it because you have already been through it and come out the victor.
Also, you can talk to your landperson about anything that has to do with ordinances, or rules about your property. Or, if he owns his own house, then make sure that you have a clear boundary marker to prevent him from crossing your bounds. Also, severe consequences for trespassing. Also, you can think of all the things that have helped you succeed in your life. Having a house, a job, a vehicle, health, etc. and think of your great qualities as a person. You can treat yourself to your favorite indulgence and take your time in your enjoyment of it.
Perhaps these things can help get your perspective back the way that you want it. Who says you can't take a vacation from this person in order to get yourself back to square one and then prevent yourself from being around them when you return? Or, you can find ways to confront them in order to catch their attention. Who protects security in your neighborhood? Perhaps a neighborhood watch, police, or someone else. Talk to the police, tell them about the person, if you can, make sure he sees you gesturing toward his house, or apartment, make up fliers that talk about abuse and bullying and post them all over place so that he can see them, have meetings with other neighbors, etc. These things will help you be proactive instead of reactive to difficult situations.
Hope this helps.

Thank you Radames,

So far have taken up one of your suggestions, talking to the other neighbour and two male friends has helped me a great deal. We share a three flated house, mine being ground floor. So everyone walks by my living room window when they go out, and he had asked if he could hang washing in my garden. This did nt seem like an unreasonable request initially, so i said yes. Then i returned home last week and he had chopped part of the garden down and snapped a sappling in half! It was hard for me to hide my tears, telling him i was upset, his reply was it will grow back. None of this had he asked me about before hand. it seems from storing bikes in my garden to pulling it to pieces he just seems to do what he likes. Anyhow, now have withdrawn from him and the problems for now, my anxiety is running high. Especially as i get the feeling the normal rules dont apply to this guy.

Certainly if he begins to do more than he already has facing this up in a more proactive way will be neccessary but right now wish i could move house and just leave him behind.

Thank you for all the suggestions, will be referring to them as time goes on.

Jorja

Ick. I hate dealing with jerks, but unless you own a lot of your own land, it's a necessity.

I say that telling him outright that your garden is important to you (and your monetary assets) is perfectly reasonable. Resale value is something that even the blackest thumbs among us can appreciate. Describe how important that is to you as an investor (this guy doesn't seem to have much faith in the heart) and how much you are concerned you are about failing your investment in the current economic downturn. Make it sound like you only care about money and this jerk will start speaking your language!