Getting worse, not better

Hi all, O.K. after seeing a doc. It looks like I really do have DID but I’m not sure I can deal with it. It was one thing to think I’m different etc all my life and someone tell me I am, ya know? Anyway, after looking at myself differently and letting them talk I’ve been spared of all the screaming, yippy but now she answers all my questions I think to myself, and I’m in a fog. I’ve never been able to think clearly but this is completely weird. The more I listen to my others; the more they talk. I know I’m supposed to listen but the telling them to ‘wait’ thing isn’t working, what do I do? Also, It’s hard to drive now and has been for over a year but I didn’t want to tell anyone. I feel in control sometime and then not others. How can I drive sometimes if I can’t feel my body? Does this usually get worse before it gets better? I can’t even remember a convo between my daughter and I on a daily basis, is this normal? I just feel like after opening this up it’s getting worse, not better…
Except my husband is fine with this and won’t leave me like I was so afraid of, this does feel better.

Hi, what do you mean it looks like I have.. Were you seen by a psychiatrist specialized in DID? Also, are you on medications for DID? If I were you, I would visit all the different routes before letting a doctor put me on some antidepressant/sedative combo. Therapy with someone who has specialized in the field (it is very important that they have specialized in DID) is probably a good start. Meditation,Homeopathy, hypnotism and other form of treatment could perhaps be of use to you also.
Best of luck to you.
-Marc

I second the suggestions of Amaker485. Sometimes, well-meaning shrinks can do more harm than good unless they really are familiar with DID.

From what I've heard, what you're experiencing is normal at this point. Everyone has a lot to say now that you're finally listening, but you will have to set some ground rules in order to keep the body healthy. No children driving, keep it quiet if you're in a business meeting, etc. If your shrink is capable, she should be able to assist. Be patient and get to know everyone, though. Journaling is supposed to be a great way to share thoughts and let alters vent.

Looks like… cause if I say “I have” there’s no turning back ….denial
*grin*
No, the psychiatrist didn’t specialize in DID but might use Hypnotism if I give the o.k.
There isn’t DID specialists here for many miles, like 12 hours drive…Grrrr.
I’ve refused all types of antidepressant but not sure that was a good idea cause coming to terms with this is so hard.
What is Homeopathy?
Normal to feel like this…oh wow.
I wish I knew how to tell them to do this or that.

Homeopathy is an alternative form of medicine... I'm no expert but if you go to the ABC Homeopathy website you can fill out a questionnaire or send a message to one of the doctors who check and respond often. I like Dr.

Personally, I take L-tyrosine, 5-http, fish oil, and acidophilus ( the last two for general health, really, although fish oil has been proven to help with depression, anxiety and mood).

Any med, especially basic antidepressants, are just a band-aid for symptoms that can't be fixed at the moment. So great choice to avoid the terrible side effects and withdraw symptoms ( I took effexor xr for months and it was TERRIBLE when I very very slowly stopped taking it).

Even these vitamins are a band-aid for my boyfriend's and my mood-swings and mostly to get us through those early mornings before work (we both have found a improvement in our moods when we first wake up- usually a cranky time for us both)

Marc has a life-coach friend who he would be happy to refer you to. She is a certified hypnotherapist. I could get the website from him if you would like.

-Meg

(haha sorry, forgot to look up the name of the doc, here it is...)

Dr. Deoshlok and also Dr. Joe De Livera are two that I have found to be quite knowledgeable

I just wanted to comment on some of the suggestions,
While I do think homeopathy is the healthiest way to go, I wouldn't completely discard the idea of taking certain anti-depressants and anti-anxiety meds if one is severely impacted by these illnesses. the western medicine that is prescribed for this can be greatly effective and often with little to no side effects (if on the correct dosage and medicines for the symptoms which may take some time to find). Also beware that like all medicine homeopathic medicines can trigger allergies, and can have side effects... know what you are taking and be careful of mixing certain medicines.
Be careful too with hypnosis, while I don't know the causes behind you DID, hypnosis can often times be the trigger of a dissociative meltdown and can hurt the system as well as hinder the healing process.
In all new treatments be careful, take all necessary precautions, and go slowly. Take your time and figure out what works for you.
Take care,
Amber

THANK YOU FOR ALL YOU SUGGESTIONS
still not knowing if years of help is what i want but all this helps me.
Switching Back and forth and some of what is say is like muted or so abnormal from what I’d ever say that I fight to gain control from behind. Sometimes scared, sometimes so frustrated that my “me” has been taken over that I scream for someone to here me. I try telling us that I want to be up front that this is my time with… and I can’t get this to work…Grrrrr!
How do I gain control?
If I tell them to wait, they are angry/sad and this makes me even more a mess to figure out.
If I do what they say, Things are rather happy and not so complicated, yet noisy. Why is this?

Shadow wrote:. Sometimes scared, sometimes so frustrated that my “me” has been taken over that I scream for someone to here me. I try telling us that I want to be up front that this is my time with… and I can’t get this to work…Grrrrr!
How do I gain control? ....

A suggestion from someone who does NOT have DID, but....

I think that one reason your alters exist, is because "you" wont do what "they" want. Making you in control all the time, would ensure that "you" wont do what "they" want. So... they are definately not going to cooperate with that.

I think that you need to understand, and accommodate what they want. Not try to just suppress them and keep them down.

If they feel like you care about what they want, and let them have it to some degree.... maybe they wont feel like they have to take control to get it.

What does your husband think you should do?