Introduction

Hi my name is jorja

have been peeking at the forums and hoping to find similar minds. Not sure its ok to put it that way but am really struggling with dissociation, depression, anxiety, isolation and a lack of view of how the move forward out of all of this is going to happen.

My t is someone i trust, after nearly 3 yrs feel like we are ok working together on issues and stuff. Although am going through a phase where i wanted to leave therapy, get a job, move house and start again. Part of me is so ticked off with the depression, the mood swings, the weight changes , everything, how do we keep up with this?

How does anyone , i guess is my question. Every day different but now somehow the same, depression, the same worries circiling my mind and feeling closed off from myself. Like someone stole my inner life!

Anyhow, sorry for disjointed introduction, am feeling numb and not very connected to anything, including therapy just now. This is partly the reason am here looking for others to support and be supportive to.

Ask any questions, i may not answer, but go ahead, something feels wrong and i need help.

Jorja

It appears you are numb because you're not yet ready to face the feelings. When you accept the feelings as part of you, not react tio them, but allow them, you will start the healing process. My thoughts.

hi jorja, welcome!

the only way to find things is to look for them. i'm sorry you are having problems. i can relate. i'm glad you are looking for answers to improve your life. hope we can help. don't be afraid to ask questions, i'll answer as soon as i can.

benny

Radames, thank you for the reply, hmmmm, food for thought and certainly makes sense, just am feeling like i need a tool kit to get at those emotions safely. Does that make sense? Still believe i will die if i experience those feelings from so long ago.

Benny, your warm welcome was so lovely to find and brought a smile inside of me to feel so accepted. Thank you very much.

I guess somehow, living alone, having very bad episodes of emotional extremes feels dangerous and really am scared when it happens i will go over an edge of no return. Am thinking others feel the same, but how do we combat it, and keep safe at those times?

sorry for more questions, my mind jumped and there it was another one.

(((((Benny , Radames))))))))) nice to meet u both

Jorja

hey jorja,

welcome to the forums. sorry about the late reply. i have been offline for a while. i hope you feel comforted and supported here, its a lovely place.

hope you stick around

palla & lexy
xx

Hiya welcome!!

Dont have any big words but a big welcome from everyone in our system. Sara

thank you everyone for the welcome,

since my first post have been lost a bit in time again. Seems i go about four weeks atm without the ability to look back and remember a great deal. It used to worry me, now i remind myself, am safe, have a home still, food and nothing bad happened so what can be so bad about being looked after but not always aware of who is doing it?

Am guessing at some stage will recognise those parts of me who do that and really hope in time learn to be more conscious of them as important parts of me. The battles inside are less now too, especially since i let go of fearing everything. Although very weirdly found someone had changed my jim jams in the night the other day, so am just wondering what next? but is a sign to me that whilst not conscious of some things at all, am safe.

So thank you for your kind words and help.

jorja

jorja,

Hello. I understand about lost time. If I don't worry about us, then I am fine.
I lose about 3wks sometimes. There have been a couple problems like driving at night, and going in dark places where I cant see(like the movies)
Otherwise you have to trust all of you. That is what I do. This did not happen until I had addressed all though.
I find this is one of the few places that the members try to help each other.
I hope you get the answers you seek.

Take care,
Red

Hi Welcome!