For those of you that may read this that don't know the situation, I have an 18 yr old son that is just beginning to be able to deal with the fact that he's DID. I did not give birth to him and he didn't come into our lives until he was 14/15, as a foster child that lived next door. We officially brought him into our home when he was 15, by just petitioning the courts. I wasn't into taking in foster children, seeing as I have 4 kids at home I did give birth to, and no matter how many times I've taken them back to the hospital where they were born, I've been told they don't accept returns!
Please forgive my sense of humor, if it offends anyone. Know that I'm a lot funnier in person and I would never get on here and be disrespectful, on purpose, to anyone!
In our latest episode of Matt/Kinfolk, he did come home before midnight!!! YEA!!!!! Kinfolk promised me he'd see that Matt got to school (because he (Kinfolk) wanted to go and check out some girls). And low and behold, he got up and went. Which really surprised me, because of the night we had.
Matt's system is really opening up and last night I found out things I didn't know. I'd always figured he had a half decent Mom, that got hooked on drugs, and later in his childhood, she went to prison. Last night I found out she went to prison the first time when he was only 2. I've talked to this woman, from prison and really thought she was just a decent woman that got into a bad situation, seeing as I thought this was her first time being locked up. I figured she'd married and had a child by a monster, he did "some" damage and she was wise enough to kick him to the curb and move on - not so. She let him do A LOT of damage and she stayed until he kicked her and Matt to the curb. And after that, the cycle just continued. I'm sorry. I don't understand people like this. I know that many people here know only too well about what some parents are capable of and I am too. But I can't say that I can understand how any woman/man/person can stand by and do nothing. I LOVE my husband. We've been together for 12 years and we've never come to blows. And I've always told him "I love you more than life itself, but if you were to ever do anything I deemed inappropriate to our kids, I'll Kill you" Plain and simple. I tell my kids "I live for you, I would die for you. I would kill for you and go to prison for the rest of my life, with a smile on my face, if it meant you were safe" I am so sorry that so many here had parents that seemed to be missing the parenting gene. But now I've learned a valuable lesson, people in prison will tell you just about anything you want to hear, just as long as you keep accepting those collect calls. She lead Matt on. Told him how great things were going to be when she got out. As I said, at the time, all I knew was of her recent past, not all the things I know now. I would never want to keep a child from his mother, if that's where the child wants to be and Matt was 16 when she got out and I told him if he wanted to get back with her, we'd have to do it the right way. I wasn't just going to let him leave my home and go back to her, since her parental rights had been taken. All she had to do was let DCS come into the home and talk to her once a week and keep up with her parole obligations, but she couldn't even keep her first appointment with DCS!! She got out and the first rule she broke was by getting back with her abusive ex boyfriend, who she was not suppose to have any contact with due to his criminal history/record. It wasn't but a few months and they were all on the run.
Well, I wasn't expecting to write a book, here, sorry
I blame no one if they just got tired and stop reading, lol, I just felt the need to get it out. I'm running on very little sleep, as Matt didn't get back until Midnight and now he's used to us having our "talks" once he gets in and we went until 3 am and left me feeling like I'm treading in waters I have no business being in! (You can catch that saga in my next post, titled "Triggers & Grounding" that should be released later today) 
(another attempt at humor) Give me a break, I'm single minded and that mind is tired, lol
Well, I think that was a lot "ado" about nothing
thanks for reading, those of you that could make it through it, lol
Pam
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