My feelings for today....

Today seemed pretty difficult for me. I started crying a few times just out of no where and then it would turn off. While driving I get so depressed about things. That I considered driving my car full speed into a rail guard. But this is nothing new to me. I have these thoughts often and a voice in my head tells me to "cut the $#%^!" I wish I would just die some days. Just thoughts. Don't plan on acting on it.

Hey,

Why are you depressed? Man, I've been really bad recently too - The weekends are especially bad.

Kevin.

Stuff just hits me and my mind races of certain events in my life that I wish I could have changed. The main thing is over a woman.

hmm, I've felt suicidal over women numerous times in my life. When you are depressed - and then a relationship with a girl fails - it can be the point that pushes you over the edge.