work

so im wondering with all the split, how can you guys manage to work?
im 26, so i got to make a living. im not split i dont know, i really think im not. (denial?) nope..im not split.

anyways. i know most of you are either married or have a highschool teenage going on (We're all kids and teenagers IMO), but sometimes..i struggle..i got to make a phonecall, and i think it's hard.

so well, wish my luck you guys, sometimes it gets lonely. and sometimes im fed up even on this medium, but i relate to most of what you guys say or do.. sometimes i like people, sometimes i think they0ve killed me. sometimes i like capitalism. sometimes i think, i already died a long time ago, sometime si think self pity sucks, sometimes i think someone who doesn't complains it's better..but is true in my last job i felt like i didn't entirely fit in. and all my friends have gone, and all my family has moved on.

and all my crushes have disappointed me. so what do i do now?
it's kinda stupid to ask questions one already knows.

I don't have switching problems, so I go through day to day, like DID isn't even really there. Like I know its there, but it really doesn't even phase me.

i wish i knew. i've tried working, but sooner or later (usually sooner) i get fired. i switch a lot. i was constantly losing time. like; " did i run that test,? or not? etc..." i heard others are good at multi- tasking. i don't know how they do it. i'm better at home with my art, but get me out in the public and forget it! even at home my husband is always checking the stove, or dryer etc...to make sure i didn't go off, switch, and leave it on. i swear, if i didn't have him around, i'd probrably burn the house down.

i try real hard. hopefully i'll learn to work better with all of us together. thank god i'm an artist. i can't fire myself. i've been reading books like "got parts" and "d.i.d, sourcebook." hope things get better soon. i'd like to hear some tips on working too.

benny